Dinner&Movie?

Yeah so yesterday went pretty good aside from the arguing. I havent argued that much in such a long time -.- I didnt even let it turn into one of those stupid ass arguments like before. Been there done that. I'm not dealing with that crap anymore.

Chrisette just so happened to be at her grand parents house so we hung out for a bit. Surprisingly my mom let me have a female over! I mean I have before but not for a while other than bree. I decided to make Hamburger Helper but she kind of gave me late notice so I didnt have time to thaw out that meat. So I just made us hamburgers and fries lol. We watched step brothers and everything went pretty chill until the end. I'm not really trippin about it but I guess you can say I tell the truth too much? lol

Yeah so my past is kind of back to haunt me (I get called a man whore when I'm not even as active as I use to be). I could careless though. I mean I'm not even looking for anything right now anyway. I just want to have fun otherwise I would have pursued having a girlfriend a long time ago.



So I was pretty hyper after all of that happened lol. Kiana and I had our latenight convo and it was kind of random.

My cousins from up north are spending the weekend down here so lets see how this weekend goes =)

Beat it up music

Okay so I just got home and this song will not get tf out of my head!

The pleasure you get from life determines the attitude you put into it. ;Celtic Proverb

Relation much!

So I just woke up and Terrel sent me this link! I have somewhat of a similar story but it's not as bad! lol "Routine"

OH MYYYY!!! HAHAHAHA

Some people really make no sense. Why can't you just let the past be the past!? And yes I sensored the sn and names.

VsGi 1:33 am
VsGi (1:33:34 AM):
whatever
VsGi (1:34:09 AM):
anyways
VsGi (1:34:21 AM):
i have something to tell you but i KNOW your gonnnaa get mad
jameswantsole 1:34 am
jameswantsole (1:34:39 AM):
I'm not gonna get mad
jameswantsole (1:34:42 AM):
who'd you tell?
jameswantsole (1:34:43 AM):
lol
VsGi 1:34 am
VsGi (1:34:47 AM):
hahhah
VsGi (1:34:49 AM):
WHOAH!
VsGi (1:34:54 AM):
nvm.
jameswantsole 1:35 am
jameswantsole (1:35:05 AM):
what?
VsGi 1:35 am
VsGi (1:35:13 AM):
no im not gonna tell you anymore.
jameswantsole 1:35 am
jameswantsole (1:35:20 AM):
wtf
jameswantsole (1:35:22 AM):
I guess
VsGi 1:35 am
VsGi (1:35:38 AM):
okay well i did tell someone.
VsGi (1:35:51 AM):
and then that someone goes "omg i fucked him too."
VsGi (1:36:31 AM):
and when she said that like idk how i felt.
jameswantsole 1:36 am
jameswantsole (1:36:41 AM):
who?
jameswantsole (1:36:59 AM):
lol
jameswantsole (1:37:00 AM):
oh wow
VsGi 1:37 am
shotGUNriki (1:37:03 AM):
H***
jameswantsole 1:37 am
jameswantsole (1:37:08 AM):
LMFAO!
jameswantsole (1:37:09 AM):
HAHAHAHHA
VsGi 1:37 am
VsGi (1:37:17 AM):
what?
jameswantsole 1:37 am
jameswantsole (1:37:21 AM):
That didnt count and it was like sophomore year
VsGi 1:37 am
VsGi (1:37:28 AM):
omg whatever
jameswantsole 1:37 am
jameswantsole (1:37:44 AM):
what!?
VsGi 1:37 am
VsGi (1:37:52 AM):
nothing.
jameswantsole 1:37 am
jameswantsole (1:37:53 AM):
thats one person
VsGi 1:38 am
VsGi (1:38:01 AM):
right.
jameswantsole 1:38 am
jameswantsole (1:38:09 AM):
you dont see me upset with you J**** and *e*** did I?
jameswantsole (1:38:22 AM):
I didnt even know you back then
VsGi 1:38 am
VsGi (1:38:33 AM):
but still
VsGi (1:38:36 AM):
whatever.
jameswantsole 1:38 am
jameswantsole (1:38:39 AM):
lol
jameswantsole (1:38:43 AM):
my point exactly
jameswantsole (1:38:47 AM):
whats the problem?
VsGi 1:38 am
VsGi (1:38:48 AM):
i just dont know how to explain it
jameswantsole 1:38 am
jameswantsole (1:38:52 AM):
try
VsGi 1:39 am
VsGi (1:39:01 AM):
WELLL I NEVER FUCKED THEM!
jameswantsole 1:39 am
jameswantsole (1:39:36 AM):
so what! why does it matter now!? We dont even have anything! lol
VsGi 1:39 am
VsGi (1:39:38 AM):
and to hear that you fucked h****!
jameswantsole 1:39 am
jameswantsole (1:39:40 AM):
she never sucked my dick
VsGi 1:39 am
VsGi (1:39:49 AM):
i was so pissed offf.
jameswantsole 1:39 am
jameswantsole (1:39:53 AM):
it was seriously for like 5 seconds then we stopped
jameswantsole (1:39:55 AM):
oh my!
VsGi 1:40 am
VsGi (1:40:02 AM):
right
jameswantsole 1:40 am
jameswantsole (1:40:03 AM):
why!?
VsGi 1:40 am
VsGi (1:40:19 AM):
cause YOU NEVER TOLD ME shes like the homegirl.
VsGi (1:40:29 AM):
idk its just GROSSS!
jameswantsole 1:40 am
jameswantsole (1:40:39 AM):
You never asked!
jameswantsole (1:40:42 AM):
And plus I seriously forgot about it lol
VsGi 1:40 am
VsGi (1:40:47 AM):
omg.
jameswantsole 1:41 am
jameswantsole (1:41:51 AM):
omg what?
VsGi 1:42 am
VsGi (1:42:06 AM):
nothingg just drop it.

No Offense

I found my new idol. Daymond John shits on just about everyone.

shoobiedoobop!

I'm waiting to get picked up and I'm getting kind of tired -.- boohoo! I guess I'll finish watching new jersey drive. Hopefully I don't fall asleep. Oh and thanks for forgetting about me Charmagne. You suck fat balls. LITERALLY! @.-(winky face) lol jk

One favor to ask.

Can you please stop thinking about me while i'm asleep? I just want to live my life. I am happy I really am. I just wish you could stop with the oxymorons. I don't hate you nor do I have anything against you btw.

If you keep focusing on the future, then you won’t be living the present, then pretty soon your present turns into the past.

Yeah, we had good times. It was an experience. It was fun, I learned new things.

Even with all of that said, I can honestly say I’m better off without you.

Not to know is bad, not to wish to know is worse. ;African Proverb

The man who does not hear and does not speak is the man who stays alive. ;Mafia Proverb

Bologna, Salsa, Patato Bread, and Peanut Butter

My weekend was an adventure. Friday afternoon kent picked me up.Jeth, Little Terrel, and I smoked hookah and watched movies at kents house the whole day to kill time. We were also looking up random things online lol if you ever get bored go to whoomp.org. Terrell stopped by for a bit but he didn't want to hit up the Mira Mesa function with us.



At around 10 we headed up there. The car ride was kind of boring because Kents system got stolen. Right when we got in there that shit was poppin! I havent been to a function like that in sooo long! Asian girls who love black guys haha Everyone was swangin! Vannie was talkin all that shit on myspace but then when she attempted to "break" me like she said she would, it didnt happen! lol But some people smelled hella bad. Like how tf do you leave the house smelling like that!? and you could notice who it was when they walked by. Someone farted so bad everyone literally everyone evacuated! hahaha I'm not even over exaggerating! Everyone walked into the backyard hahah Thats when I met the "mystery girl" thats all I have to say about that lol It's crazy how known we are up there. Some guy introduced himself to me ironically his name was james haha and when I was saying who I was he cut me off and was like yeah I know, "get it james" right? lol It isnt even on a big headed tip. Just like a wth. I was never like that. Prince and his crew showed up too and we were all swangin. I think thats why I got out of shape haha Someone almost knocked down the fish tank dancing -.- There are just a million little things that I can say about the party. haha I met a whole bunch of new people and some from samahan. Networking like a mofo!

At around 1:30 we headed back down south to the hookah lounge and it was only open for like 30 minutes. I feel kind of bad for the people who followed us back down. I think its funny how people just hand me a can to drink or a bottle to swigg. It's like they want me to get drunk!









After it ended the owner invited us to his house for a kickback lol kind of weird so we didnt end up going. Instead I rode with Fred to Earls house. He has a condo in mission to himself on the weekends. Thats when the night really got started. They busted out Corona's, Grey Goose, and Nuvo. I got pretty fucked up. Maly was nice enough to make me a pb&j. I dont remember if it was maly or lindsey who asked to put salsa on a sandwich! hahah then we started coming up with crazy combinations. All I remember was laying in bed and talking then I crashed tf out. I woke up in white sheets and not knowing where I was =.= When I turned my head I realized I woke up to maly! @.@ I was thinking "please dont tell me.. oh no!" I checked to see if I had my clothes on haha I did. Thank the Lord! The aftermath of it all was Fred snoring on the couch, everyone knocked out on the floor, and there were empty bottles on the counter. On the way home we were bumpin MF Doom. I had no idea he knew hip hop lol. I barely even got any sleep! right when I got home I got ready again. I'll blog about that in a bit

"If you know what you got then you ain't got much"- Bishop Don Magic Juan

If I dont have anything to give myself how am I gonna have it to give to you? -Baby Boy

lalala

I love how everythings coming back. I finished high school! I've got my friends, family, females (I'm no whore anymore!), and I should be getting that job!

lolol last post of the night!

If you don't know much about hip hop then I doubt that you'd find it as funny as I do!

Goodnight

One thing that you'll learn more about me today is that I could careless about the so called "problems" that go on right now. The future is what I find more interesting

It's not that things don't work, life just happens.

BITCH

IF I WANTED HER I COULD HAVE HER LEAVE ME ALONE WITH THAT SHIT. NO ONE WANTS YOUR GIRL! LOL

Sometimes the cards we are dealt are not always fair. However you must keep smiling && move on
“
— Tom Jackson

Quickie

All I can remember is that I was standing in a subway station and the doors were all open. Every different cart had a couple of people I knew in it and the subway went in a circle. Everything would black out except for the lights in the cart. Some people were arguing, some people were laughing, some people were complaining, and others were happy. Someone was complaining that they were hungry and I was trying to give them food but the subway started going again. I tripped and I wasn't able to give them what they wanted.

Blackout
To dream that there is a blackout, indicates your lack of insight and perspective on a situation. You may be feeling frustrated or experiencing failure in some work that you are attempting. The blackout may also symbolize ignorance, the unconscious, evil, death, or fear of the unknown.

Subway
To dream that you are in the subway, denotes that you are reaching your goal via unconscious methods. You may be exploring hidden aspects of yourself. Alternatively, it suggests that you are making a hasty decision.

People
To see people you know in your dream, signifies qualities and feelings of those people that you desire for yourself.

To see people from your past in your dream, refers to your shadow and other unacknowledged aspects of yourself. It can represent a waking situation that is bringing out similar feelings as your past relationships.

Food
To see food in your dream, represents physical and emotional nourishment and energies. The different types of food can symbolize a wide range of things. Generally, fruit is symbolic of sensuality. Frozen foods may imply your cold emotions and frigid ways.

umm yeah

When all has been said and done, was it worth it?

God damn right it was.

PRICELESS!

They just had to put up the shitty picture of me lol

HAHAHAHHA LMFAOLMFAO!

The things a man would do for the love of their life! lol I can tell you that I havent met anyone that I am willing to do this for! Darrio is such a nut! lmfao

And

People wonder why I can be such a dick toward females.
It takes alot more than that to actually get to me.

Good Night!

Last post

of the night

Yeauh I guess

Things like this just take a little time? lol

Truthful words

Sometimes when you care about someone you've gotta think about them before yourself.

Don't waste another second worrying.. When its all said and done... What was that worry really worth.. LIVE IN THE NOW.. (Be happy ur alive)

FUCK CANCER

This seriously ruined my day. Sounds dumb when someone you dont know dies. Well I know his music and it's kept me sane lately. WTF

RIP GURU..

Plain and Simple

I've been in such a great mood and i'm not going to let this get to me. You want it like that you got it like that. Nothing more needs to be said.

=]=]=]=]=]

I love how once problem dips they all do! My phone is the least of my worries. Theres just too much momentum right about now. My life has gotten soo much better! stress free is the way to be! =) lol K so today I have school -.- I'm soo over my so called "high school" I just want that part time job, car and College. It's so damn close!

I was once one of those guys @.@


We need more females like this!

Passion

It's crazy how I can name about 95% of these shoes. One day.. SIGH* =)

Busted!

I can honestly say that this weekend was one of the best in such a long time. I didnt end up going to Long Beach because it was too late notice. Plus they spent the night up there and I didnt wanna do all of that because I wouldnt have made it to my grand mas. Lastnight was craazy! Okay so we mobbed it to Angelas kickback/party. Albert was djing and he kept on playing Nat King Cole songs (L-O-V-E) lmfao! I felt like we were at some high class ball room type party. Salyna made me drink when she drank and vice versa. I reallly thought I was gonna get drunk because her and Kathleen are always forcing me to drink @.@ But being that all she ate was a hand full of chips I had the upper hand. We took 4 shots of Vodka, a couple of shots of UV, and 3 beers I think. Sinty came kind of late and he was already drunk! he was being one of those obnoxious drunks but we were still lookin out for him. It was funny because he was begging people to punch him in the face. And then he punched the ceiling fan -.- Salyna was teaching some of the girls how to roll and shake there ass it was hilarious!I swear I think she's black sometimes!

At around 1:30 we finally dipped to Kiana's kickback. But before we left, Jeth and Tony got into it. Jeth is only like 15 and tony is a grown ass man so I tried to break it up until Tony started talkin shit to me. So thats when I got in it. He started trying to bang west coast on me and some more shit. Hes a little pussy trying to bust a hollywood.

We were a few cars deep heading to Kiana's and Tim's dumb ass decided to be dumb and signal one direction then go the opposite. So we got pulled over. Junior was panicing like a little pussy And I kept on tellin him to calm down. Like wtf that just makes it obvious that youve been drinking! So they came up and did that pen test and he couldnt stop touching things and like relax. I really thought we were gonna get arrested! So they made him step out of the car and he did the test where you walk 9 steps forward and turn around to do 9 more steps. His dumb ass took 9 steps forward and then walked 9 steps backward without turning around @.@ The cops were cracking up! all I could do is put my hand on my head and think "damn were goin to jail -.- smh" They gave him the breathalizer and he passed. Thats all that matters. I couldn't help but laugh but fuck! Jail would not be a good place for me to be 0,0

Once that was done we were heading to Kiana's until Tim calls and tells us some people were following tom and hes driving around. So we rushed to east side to meet up with them. The guys got out of there car and ran in the house with there car still on -.- wtf! hahaha Then they called the cops! Once that was done and over with we just called it a night. I came home and talked to Kiana until crashing out.

Dreamer

Dreams are like a box of chocolate. You never know what your gonna get! haha This time from what I can remember, Junior and I were cruising in east side. Some bricks of heroine plopped right in my lap and we ended up being chased by the cops. Spot light and everything. I jumped out the car and took off. They couldnt find me but they pulled him over and began to give him a drinking test like they really did yesterday.

I ended up walking up to the car and they told me to get away. After that I decided to vacation so swang gang ended up going to puerto rico. We had our own condo and everything was high class. We clubbed like there was no tomorrow. Some girls came up to me and said that If I had my pass port they would bring girls up to the condo lol

Once we got back to the states, Sonari called me up and wanted Adrian and I to spend the night. I woke up after that.

Drugs
To dream that you are in possession of or taking drugs, signifies your need for a "quick fix" or from an escape from reality. You may be turning to a potentially harmful alternative as an instant escape from your problems. Ask yourself why you need the drugs. What do you hope the drugs will achieve for you? -I do not do drugs like that! lol

Chase
To dream that you are being chased, signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is often a metaphor for some form of insecurity. Alternatively, you may be running away from a primal urge or fear.

Vacation
To dream that you are having a bad or awful vacation, suggests that you are not able to escape from the daily responsibilities of your waking life. You are having difficulties coping with life's problems and issues. -I had a great vacation!

Clubbing
To dream that you are clubbing, represents your sense of belonging. More directly, the dream suggests your need to relax and let loose or that you need to settle down a little.

YEEEUUHH

My kind of women. Not just the looks but the style haha.







One of my fantasies have always been to do a girl with nothing but a pair of dunks on lmfao ;-)

Facts Faced!

Waking up drunk is no bueno! lol Lastnight was such a good night. It reminded me of the old days. Maybe thats why I made the drunk call. I feel alot better now though =) I think thats the reason why she was in like practically all the dreams I've been having lately. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I'm nowhere near hurt. Just a little more open minded. ANYWAYS! The talent show was hella poppin! We mobbed in there hella deep!

So many girls were whispering and pointing "Thats swang gang bla bla bla" lol. We even had our own area! Once the dancing started, everyone was swangin! =) It's been such a long ass time. I just hated the fact that all of the cute girls could not dance -.-

After the talent show/ dance, we headed to a function 5 cars deep like the old days. We were bumpin the song swang gang had made a while back. Hazards blazin and some more ish. Before going in, Freddy busted out a bottle of e&j and we killed that shit! When we showed up they tried to make us pay at first but they decided to let us in =) I think it's funny how I get alot alot more attention when there are black girls lol.

The aftermath VVVVV NO BUENO!


Once that was done with, we headed to blue flame. The music is so much better than alladins! Tiffany and Lindsey caught me while I was walking and had me sit in the car with them. That was when I really started drinkng and thizzing! We had practically a full bottle of UV. Tiffany took one swig and the rest was lindsey and mine. We killed that shit big time! When I got in there everything started to kick in and this guys had those gloves with the little lights and shiit. He was giving light shows and what not.

Then thats when all the texting began. I couldnt hold anything inside anymore. It really felt great getting all of that crap off of my chest.

Determined

Okay so my mind has been made up. I will be residing in the bay area (preferably san fran or san jo) within the next 2 years. Even if it means going by myself. I know a couple of people out there already and thats just about all that I need. First things first though, Save Save Save! Mark my words. I cant wait! =)

Dreams

They get more random and weird everytime I have one. I slept for a full 8 hours today and had 3 seperate dreams in the midst of it all.

Okay so it all started with Bree and I (Again! IDK why she always ends up in my dreams. I dont even think of her that much.) We were at some amusement park like 6 flags or something. we rode a couple of rides. Just as friends nothing more. She and I ended up getting into one of our funny arguments and she told me to stfu. I told her to stfu too. lol but we eventually got over it. Her family was there also. We had a blast! haha

Later on that night we ended up at the hotel room. This guys that I didnt recognize was their supposed cousin had started trippin. He had a beer bottle in his hand and started trying to get up in my face saying dont fuck with bree or something like that. Her older brother made him leave. And Im still sitting there like WTF. Kenny warned me that that is the last person that I want to fight and I honestly dgaf at the time. I took off my hoody. I was hella cut up and had all these tattoos. The only ones I could remember was the fokai symbol up my rib cage and eagle wings on my back.

The guy comes in, toss' his beer at the wall, and charges at me. He tackled me and I immediately pulled full guard. I kept on hitting him and hitting him in the face until he pulled a belt out. Thats when they began to break it up. I grabbed the belt from him and started to reach over in order to hit him with it. They dragged him out of the room. Bree kept on apologizing about the whole thing. I just got my shit and left.

I was in a city with nowhere to go. Wandering and what not. I somehow ended up sitting on my bag at a dock. A crowd began to come around me like something was about to happen. Kenny was sitting on one of those lifeguard chairs telling me to watch out. The cousin jumped in front of me and we began to fight again. only thing is before it had started I somehow got put in the arctic in an instant.

There was blood all over the snow and a plane right on the water waiting to be boarded with the door open. A polar bear came chasing me out of nowhere. I ran as fast as I could for the plane. When I got inside I immediately locked it. It was empty and I had no idea how to fly the damn thing. The cockpit had simple buttons for me to push in order to fly wherever it was I needed to go. Once I began pressing buttons, the polar bear got in. It began to charge at the cockpit. I swung my door open and almost fell into the water. All I could do was hold on to the open door until the bear began to follow me. We were running on top of the plane. It somehow got ahold of me and I kicked it into the water.

Once that happened I flew the plane. I had no idea where I was going but I was out! It was pretty cool. I seen northern lights before I somehow ended up in a kitchen.

I was so hungry! All I did was microwave a whole bunch of stuff haha. Then I woke up.

Meaning lol

Amusement Park
To see or be in an amusement park in your dream, indicates that you need to set some time for leisure and more enjoyment in your life. Consider how everything in the park is an expression of some aspect of yourself.� Alternatively, you may be too easily distracted lately.

Fighting
To dream that you are in a fight, indicates inner turmoil. Some aspect of yourself is in conflict with another aspect of yourself. Perhaps an unresolved or unacknowledged part is fighting for its right to be heard. It may also parallel a fight or struggle that you are going through in your waking life.

Beer
To see or drink beer in your dream, represents happiness, fogginess, or inspiration. It also indicates that you have quite a social life.

Tattoo
To dream that you have tattoos, represent individuality and the desire to stand out in a crowd. You want to be unique and different from everybody else, particularly if you do not have any tattoos in real life. Consider also what the tattoo is. Alternatively, to dream that you have a tattoo, suggests that a waking situation or decision is having a much longer lasting effect that you had expected.

Muscle
To see muscles in your dream, symbolize power, strength, and flexibility. You need to develop these qualities and become a more stronger and confident person.

Belt
To see a belt in your dream, signifies a constricted flow of life energy and issues of morality. You may be feeling conflicted between what you think (your intellectual reasoning) and what you feel (your instinctual nature). Alternatively, a belt may symbolize punishment and discipline.

Docks
To dream that you are on the docks, suggests that you have successfully gotten through some tough times and emotions.

Arctic
To dream that you are in the Arctic, symbolizes your emotional state. You may be feeling cold and rigid. Alternatively, it suggests that you are feeling isolated and lovely.

Glacier
To see a glacier in your dream, refers to your cold feelings. You are shutting down emotionally.

Polar Bear
To see a polar bear in your dream, signifies a reawakening.

Airplanes
To dream that you are flying an airplane, suggests that you are in complete control of your destination in life. You are confident and self-assured in your decisions and accomplishments.

Northern Lights
To see the northern lights in your dream, represents renewed energy, vitality, awe, insight and youth. A situation or relationship will be made clear to you or a positive spiritual experience will fill you with warmth and love. You will gain some amazing new wisdom and knowledge. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you know what you need to do, but may be too lazy or too afraid to jump into action.

Kitchen
To see a kitchen in your dream, signifies your need for warmth and spiritual nourishment. It may also be symbolic of the nurturing mother or the way that you are caring for your loved ones. Alternatively the kitchen, represents a transformation.

Microwave
To see a microwave in your dream, represents your quick thinking and quick-action. You need to consider new and better way of doing things.

Eating
eating alone may reflect independent needs. Also consider the pun, "what's eating you up?" in reference to anxiety that you may be feeling.

Blast From The Past!

This was when cartoons and kid shows were the best!

These two were my all time favorite though lol






I just realized how racist and stereotypical this show is. They speak ebonics and the show is called my brother and me instead of my brother and I -.- Oh welll! I use to always watch it lol

BARNEY GONE WILD!

So my nephew and I are watching barney on youtube and what do you know! This was on it hahaha

Today was pretty chill. Kiana woke me up early and I actually got alot of things done rather than procrastinating.

Junior and I ended up going to the barber shop in east side. Not when I seen like everyone around there haha. I had no idea that Philips shop was right there! I hung out with him and vee for a bit and came up on a beer pong set =)

Later on Junior and I played UFC and COD. He had a little date with a girl. I was too tired and I didnt feel like getting ready so her friend became a 3rd wheel lol Its not my fault I was told late notice! Blind dates just arent my thing. hahaha

After coming home I took a nap and woke up to some chili =)


Makes me want to kick back with a cornoa and lime <3
vvv

JUST IN LUCK!

So I applied for sears not too long ago. I was pretty scared I'd get an interview really soon because I was puffin the cheeba not too long ago. This morning they called me and told me that my interview isnt going to be for a little over 2 weeks! =) So more time that I have to pass that crap!

=]

Even though we barely know each other I feel like I've known you forever. THANKS!



THIS SHIT IS MY NEW ANTHEM!

Movement

Thursday-

Was busy busy busy! Can you believe I did testing for 5 hours!? I wonder how much money I am going to get for it =) Only time will tell! Once I got home I took a 3 hour nap and had one of those crazy dreams @.@ I loved it!

Later on Junior picked me up and we went to OG Hugos. Before we went we stopped by the liquor store for chasers and mixers. I seen this fione ass asian chick and she made eye contact with me lol. I gave her the eye brow and she giggled! The whole time we were in there she was walking around glancing at me. I was debating on whether or not I should talk to her. I decided not too since we were in a rush. But as we were leaving the liquor store she pulled off in a suped up Lexus IS! I told junior to follow her lol We pulled up on the side of her and My fucking window didnt roll down so it was a fail! She went her way and I went mine -.-


Hugo just got back from Puerto Rico.It was like a guys night out no homo haha. We played PS3 and tried the Puerto Rican rums he had. Shit was awesome. His supervisor had some dank ass weed (White Widow and Kush). As tempting it was I didnt smoke! haha We watched this thing called smack fest and a whole bunch of stuff on his ps3. The night ended at around 4.

Friday - I did a shit load of yard work and stayed in the house. I was just far too tired to be out like that. It may sound like an oxymoron but I didnt even go to sleep until 5! hahaha Patty and I were chatting on aim. That girl that I had ran into at the liquor store had already knew who I was! She texted patty right after she seen me lol!

Saturday- Yard work! hahahah Gener came back from chicago so Gen drove down here from San Marcos. She picked me up and we went to rallys. Her and I talked and ate as we waited for Gener and Kristy to meet up with us.

They had apparently been fighting before they got us -.- but overall it was whatever. I missed the fight just to kick it with them and all we did was go to plaza for a bit.

When I got home I was suppose to go to Hangs bon fire bbq but noooo! my ride flaked. So I took a nap.

Later on that night Chitter called me to hang out. Her, Sonari, and I went to Donnas function. Talk about a Mount Miguel Reunion! I found it funny that they never knew I can dance. Maybe its because during school I was the guy who just focused on good grades. The party wasnt so great so we left around 11.

We picked up Sonari's boy at his work and he brought out a shit load of KFC omg it was soo bomb! I'm craving it right about now lol. Chitter and I sat in the car eating kfc in front of Naris house.

Lester invited us to his kickback. All of Manzana Movement was there. I never thought I'd be kicking it with them lol. When we got there the very first thing they did was make us take shots of captain Morgan! I took 2 shots back to back and just chilled. I wasnt trying to drink too much.



This white boy who was hella faded came up and introduced himself to me. I told him my name and he goes "Wait.. GET IT JAMES!? YOURE GET IT JAMES! I MET GET IT JAMES YA! WHATS UPPPP!!!" LOL I was like wtf! I remember him from a kickback last year and he was getting all hyphy and trying to swang! He still does the same exact thing!

The night ended at around 230. I came home to my late night convo then crashed out =)

A Play To Relate.

"They say love will make you do some crazy things, but its the lack of love that makes you do things you never thought you could ever do."

"They say it is better to have love and lost then to have never love before. I say it is better to have never have lost "

I find it really really crazy how this play is something I can relate too. Just about 90 percent of it describes me -.-

Here we go again!

I started on a cruise with Mariah Carey and we were like somewhere near south america. It was a big party on there. Everything was first person this time so it really felt real. Everyone was dancing and there were those people dancing with those shakers. I was swangin and there was confetti everywhere. For some reason it was time for me to leave. I had to take a helicopter back to cali. We were riding passed alot of nice scenery. One place that really stood out was the Guadacanal.

I some how ended up at my sisters house in the ghetto and watched the news. It was saying that Mariah Carey was wanted but it didnt say what for. She lived in an apartment not too far away. As I drove toward her house I seen a trail of flower petals and there were african ladies dressed in all white with head wraps throwing them down while chanting some song.

Later on that night I was at a party. I seen a lot of people who went to mount miguel. They were telling me I need to catch round 2 with the guy I recently fought like asap. I agreed.

I woke up in an ordinary apartment. But when I decided to go outside we were like high up in the air. There was wooden apartments everywhere I looked and we were on a wooden platform. When I walked out he was there and I didnt hesitate to fight him. I beat him up like I did jodi. It was eventually broken up and everything was squashed.

After the fight everyone disappeared and all of my teachers that ive either seen or have had as a teacher in the past came out of their houses. They crowded around me and was telling me how good I look and what not. Ms. Alia (My teachers assistant) came out topless and in a thong lol! she was all trying to give me a hug and take pictures with me! As I was taking pictures everyone kept on giving me compliments. It was time for me to leave so I ended up driving back home.

When I got in my house, I got in boxers, laid in bed, and watched tv. At that moment an earthquake started and I immediately started running down my stairs. I was pretty confused on what to do. It was like I was hesitating whether or not I should go in my back yard or my front yard. During that time it had ended. Going to the front yard my parents were waiting for me and asking me if I was alright.

then I woke up! haha

Celebration
To dream of a celebration, represents your achievement toward a higher level of growth. This dream may also be a self-congratulatory one for the goals you have achieved and for the recognition you have gained. You may be honoring some victory, success, or accomplishment. Alternatively, to dream of a celebration, symbolizes freedom and emotional release. Celebration dreams are common for those who anticipate some upcoming turning points or events in their waking life.

Party
To dream that you are at a party, suggests that you need to get out more and enjoy yourself. If the party is bad, then it indicates that you are unsure of your social skills.

Dance
To dream that you are dancing, signifies freedom from any constraints and restrictions

Celebrity
To see a celebrity in your dream, represents your beliefs and understanding about him or her. Something in you waking life has triggered these similar beliefs and feelings.

Helicopter
To dream that you are in a helicopter, indicates that you are living beyond your means. You need to slow down and don't try to please everyone. Alternatively, you may be experiencing a higher level of consciousness, new-found freedom and greater awareness.

White
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. However, in Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.

Petals
To see petals in your dream, indicates a broken relationship or a rift in a friendship.� It also represents regret and guilt.

Wood
To dream of wood, suggests that you are emotionless and feeling dead inside. Your behavior is too automated; you're just going along with the flow. Or you may be acting out without fully thinking things through. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on "getting wood" or sexual arousal. -I think it was the 2nd one haha

Fighting
To dream that you are in a fight, indicates inner turmoil. Some aspect of yourself is in conflict with another aspect of yourself. Perhaps an unresolved or unacknowledged part is fighting for its right to be heard. It may also parallel a fight or struggle that you are going through in your waking life.

Teacher
To see your teacher (past or present) in your dream, suggests that you are seeking some advice, guidance, or knowledge. You are heading into a new path in life and ready to learn by example or from a past experience. Consider your own personal experiences with that particular teacher. What subject was taught? Alternatively, it may relate to issues with authority and seeking approval. You may be going through a situation in your waking life where you feel that you are being treated like a student or in which you feel you are being put to a test.

Picture
To dream that you are taking a picture, suggests that you need to get a good understanding and gain more information on some issue. You need to focus more attention to some situation or relationship. Perhaps you feel that you need to recapture some past moments in a relationship.

Earthquake
To dream of an earthquake, suggests that you are experiencing a major "shake-up" that is threatening your stability and foundation. The dream highlights your insecurity, fears and sense of helplessness. Is there something in your life that you feel at "fault" for? -I think its because we've been having earthquakes lately though

It never gets old!

My life revolves around music I swear

People are sleeping on her

Weirdo Dream!

Okay so the dream I just had was like some fairy tale shit. By the time I actually woke up I had 8 missed calls from people. It is very rare that I sleep through the phone ringing.

I was with this girl who looked somewhat like mae (Kat Amons Cousin) but she was really really pretty and I was riding on the back of her unicorn with her and it was flying. We crossed a bridge and she destroyed it. She was like My girlfriend or something. We were going through green valley pastures and what not like we escaped from some midevil castle. As we were riding she would occasionally tell me everything is going to be just fine and I have a great life ahead of me. We ended up in a roman like room that was in a circle with a sky light in the middle. Her and I laughed, cuddled, and ate grapes and stuff on a blanket.

Then out of nowhere a really really big shopping cart came rolling in and stopped right in front of us. I was on the top and she was guiding us on the bottom. We somehow took it all the way to my old apartments in spring valley. My aunt Lisa answered the door and handed us a box of pizza. 2 of my cousins were there too and she handed them voucher coupons for free pizza and then I woke up lol.

Unicorn
To see a unicorn in your dream, symbolizes high ideals, hope and insight in a current situation. It also symbolizes power, gentleness, and purity. Alternatively, it may represent your one-sided views.

Ride
To dream that you are riding an animal or vehicle, symbolizes the path and direction of your life. If you were riding away, then it suggests that you need to distance yourself from some issue.

Castle
To see a castle in your dream, signifies reward, honor, recognition, and praise for your achievements. You are destined to a position of power, wealth, and prestige. Alternatively, the dream could indicate your desire to escape from life's daily problems.

Drawbridge
To see a drawbridge in your dream, represents protection. You may feel that some relationship or situation is too invasive. It may also mean that you are drawing the line and creating boundaries.

Valley
To dream that you are in a valley, symbolizes your need to be sheltered and protected. If you are entering or walking through a valley, then it is analogous to your issues of death and dying. This death may be symbolic as in an end to something in your life.� Alternatively, the dream represents life's struggles and hardships before you can achieve some spiritual enlightenment or epiphany.

Shopping Cart
To see or use a shopping cart in your dream, indicates that you are reaping the rewards and benefits of your hard work.

Pizza
To see or eat pizza in your dream, represents abundance, choices, and variety.

Fuuuuuckk! =)

Yesterday and today consisted of Yard work! It is nowhere near finished either! lol Maaan o man. My mom offered me 80 for it but I don't feel the need to get paid to do something I am already suppose to do. I really hope I get this job. Pray for me! On top of that schools been good. I am gradually earning scholarship money! Free money! people are pretty dumb for not taking it lol. Who ever thought they could see me having the simple life and actually enjoying it? I didnt! lol

Junior wants me to go to the club with him today but I highly doubt I am. He still hasnt manned up and told me so we'll see where that goes. Honestly, I am not even worried about it. But being that my life is lived by principals, it will be confronted.

Life is just far too ironic for me right now and I am loving it. Like no joke. I want to say thank you to you like I seriously do but I dont want to get the cold shoulder -.- I just realized what 2 days ago was when this song came on pandora this morning.

Lesson Learned

Kiana speaks like a true champ with this one-

You can’t just walk away from something and expect to pick up the pieces when you feel like it

Sorry but things don’t work that way

Us and our convo!

Dayumm Debbie 8:14 pm
(8:14:11 PM):lmfao i just told my hg that my stripper names gunna be DMONEY and shes like your stupid all calm lmfao
jameswantsole 8:14 pm
(8:14:18 PM):hahah
(8:14:39 PM):my stripper name is gonna be GetItJames!
Dayumm Debbie 8:14 pm
(8:14:39 PM):my sister said EW. lmfao just like that
jameswantsole 8:14 pm
(8:14:39 PM):hahaha
(8:14:51 PM):i'm gonna be a fire man
(8:14:53 PM):lol
(8:17:06 PM):I dont blame her!
Dayumm Debbie 8:22 pm
(8:22:43 PM):lol
(8:22:47 PM):fuck you
jameswantsole 8:23 pm
(8:23:16 PM):hahahha
(8:23:22 PM):dynamic debbie
(8:23:23 PM):lol
(8:23:29 PM):debbie dynamics
(8:23:30 PM):idk!
(8:23:30 PM):hahah
Dayumm Debbie 8:23 pm
(8:23:34 PM):stop i just sound big ahhahaah
jameswantsole 8:23 pm
(8:23:35 PM):sounds like a computer
(8:23:37 PM)hahaha

EARTHQUAKE!

It's a little weird how that had to happen on Easter! My family were all at my grand parents house and I was watching tv when it happened. We were all just staring at eachother like WITFW!? My grand ma looked around confused and just shrugged her shoulders while she continued to put on make up. Then my aunt fell down the stairs yelling earthquake! I could not stop laughing! hahah and she was yelling at us to go outside! We were still staring at her like WTF!? hahah Once we get to the backyard my grand pa was telling us to get away from his ping pong table! That's all his punk ass was worried about hahaha jk

Overall I really loved the time I spent with my family. We all laughed about it at the table. My grand pa is giving me his drum set piece by piece and my moms boyfriend is teaching me how to play the piano so i am really looking forward to the rest of this year! Oh! and I am going back to St. Mary's Youth Group. I cant wait! =)

Get Up Get Out Just Chill

Other than the lecture my mom just gave me, this weekends wasn't bad at all.

Thursday- I actually stayed in the house! It was pretty chill. Kiana kept me company. I dont know if she realized that lol. I watched a K- Movie that was funny and good. It's called My Boss My Teacher. It has alot to do with respecting your elders and what not.

All that I have to say is that he went out like a rider! The music tries to make it seem all dramatic and what not but it just makes me laugh. hahah



Friday- I spent most of the day watching tv and movies. was flaked out on so I ended up at Kathleens house for a replay of sunday lol. It was fun =) I threw up on that jungle she has in the backyard and someone threw up on the couch lol! Her and Salyna are alcoholics I swear! lol They make me seem like a light weight or something. Lo had some medi so we duced it. That shit had me on a good one. I need to stop the weed binge that I have. It's no bueno!After that I came home and eventually crashed out.

Saturday- Was more of a family day. It was my little cousins birthday and those kids were irritting the crap out of me! I cant believe I missed Lao New Year for that crud. Once I came home I crashed out for a good 3 hours which is most likely the reason why I am still up! haha

Junior came and picked me up and still didnt admit what he did. I am going to give it a couple more days and that will determine alot. Sonari and Cindys party was pretty ghetto! lol Everyone was faded. I just had half a cup of grey goose. I really wanted to go home because there wasnt much for me to do there. I couldnt stop laughing at how the black guys who ran the door would try and use pick up lines "DAMN BABY I'D DRINK YO BATH WATER" or "DEEENG SHE GOT THAT ASIAN PERSUASION!" lmfao Once I got home I ate a 5 layer and waited for my late night phone call which didnt end up happening lol. I took too long taking a shower and my mom kept on going on and on about how I needed to do this and that bla bla bla. By the time I got done Kiana was K.O. She tried to act like she wasnt haha it's all good though. K well I am going to bump Pandora and attempt to get some sleep. Morny Morning!

First poem haha

Okay so it took me like a day on and off to do. Sorry if it sucks a bit but its not suppose to be on an emo note more of an appreciation one for bree. K well time to finish getting ready enjoy!

Dear First Love,

The things that we've done were untrust,
a person once subject to lust.
You put future girls at ease i'd have to admit.
But theyv'e got nothing on you because you never quit.
although you have moved on, we both kindle that flame.
that everything is gonna be alright one day.
to think our situation was unfortunate
could only mean that the love we have for eachother is not legit.
I say these things because they stay on my mind
to have the epiphany that you would actually stay after pushing you away would be sublime
Replacements are easy to find
relationships are hard to keep
You thought of it as a waste of time
I thought of it as a way to flee
To flee from the pain
to flee from the suffering
To flee so far I gradually ended up with nothing
And as I sit, wonder, and wait
The eyes begin to fill with anger and hate
you being the one I turn to can already relate

-James Rachal =)

She

Has no idea ;-)

Times like this

I point laugh and let you try hahaha Good luck buddy ol pal!

TWITCH

Okay so my right eye has been twitching since lastnight. I googled the superstition and I got 2 different answers..

A:

Someone is thinking about you when your right eye twitches.

A:

Someone is gossiping about you.