90's

Although I grew up in the 90's I kind of want to go back at this age so i'd be able to remember most of it. Being black was the shit! We didnt have that stupid shit we have today. It just goes to show how much society has really changed. I mean back then, Black people actually had respect and actually spoke about shit that could relate to everyday life. Even if there wasnt all of that technology. The most I miss about it is the music. None of that stupid shit like today.

I got kind of bored so I decided to post hella videos up from music I use to remember. Sorry if its alot it wasnt even half of what I was gonna put up.

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I never actually listened to this song. But it says alot @.@

Blogative

Okay so I just came home from this bomb ass buffet. I forgot what its called. But if I could, I would throw up just to eat it all over again! I'm full and tired. I figure since I dont think ill be getting any homework done tonight, I should blog a bit.I didnt think a birthday wish list would be necessary. But ill make one any way haha.

Idk what it is with me and grey this year but yeah. Good luck biting! =)

















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That's Deep.

When a bitch gives a nigga her love..

When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
it's like you're allowing them to break your heart.
once a nigga makes you feel all good inside, makes you feel comfortable with him, makes you feel 10x beautiful than what you really are, makes your heart beat faster n slower at the same time, and is your FIRST to everything.. he has you.


When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
you'll do anything for him. you'd lay yourself on the line for him, feeling as IF he might do the same.. when really, he wouldn't.
When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
to be real, you lose alot of friends knowing that your man makes you feel like you have that comfort, you have him and you dont need nobody else..


When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
he'll make you feel like he will NEVER ever hurt you, but meanwhile when you sittin' at home, the niggas on the other line with another bitch tryna stay low creepin'.
When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
if once he does hurt you, and you give him another chance, he will continue to repeat the shit he does 'cause he'll feel like you'll always go back to him.


When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
after being the HUMANS that you are.. fussin' n fightin' at each other in order to maintain a strong relationship, you become weaker and weaker by the shit you take and by how much you allow him to BREAK YOU.
When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
through the tears that you cry.. through the anger that you posses.. through the happiness that you can never get once back.. you still give him a chance because you love him. it's like, why does something so WRONG feel so RIGHT?


When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
through everything that has overcame you, through the good and the bad.. no matter how horrible it is, you'd rather have bad times with HIM than have a good time with someone else..


When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
not only til the point that he continues to break you and ruin you.. that you've just had it.. and you realize you're not the same person you were once before.
Knowing that you should have gave up the first time, you only did not because you were in love. Because you thought that all the words he has said to you, all the things he has done for you, or the way he made you feel makes you feel like no otha NIGGA could ever do for you.
and knowing this..


It all comes down to a point..
where i sit to myself and think ..
You'll never forget your first true love, NEVER.
The reason why this all happens is because you chose to make it unhealthy. You chose to let him break you.. you chose to sit there and cry every night wishing you weren't alive.. you chose to let a nigga hurt you.


And this is because.. it's a BITCH who gave a NIGGA her love.. meaning not only through the whole relationship you were once in with your first true love you were a bitch.. but you were a good person who had faith to make the relationship work. Once he fucked up on me and I fucked up on him, I realized our relationship was all downhill. If only he gave me US a chance to sit down, wake up and realize what we have is something that we could change. You can never change a NIGGA for who he is, or what he cannot be. In order for someone to change, they have to change for themselves, for the better. In order to maintain a healthy relationship, you gotta sacrifice. You gotta TRUST. You gotta have that communication that no one else could ever have with you.. you gotta be NOT AFRAID to give chances.


he was once a man.. once a man that i could call my own and not worry about. I was once a lady that i could say to myself.. "im strong." BUT, i let him over take me. I let him break me. I let him do what he would do to me. i let him. Why? Because i loved him, because i thought we were meant to be. But it wasn't all his fault.. it was also mine. But i learned from my mistakes, and i learned so much to be a stronger person and know that throughout everything he will always have my love.. a real lady will always fall down to being a bitch. Whether its from lettin a nigga hurt her.. or lettin her friends break her.. or lettin the world take her. Either way.. once in your life time a lady will stoop down to be a weak female because they can't help it.


Only a real man would take care of a real lady. Only a real typa love would be able to fix things and overcome all the obstacles that have been thrown at them.


So what does that tell you today..? Are you in love with a nigga that treats you how you shouldn't be treated? Are with you a nigga that makes you feel 10x worse through pain but can make you feel the happiest ever when hes with you?
dont let a nigga break you. Us females in this world all deserve to have respect, all deserve to be happy. Same goes for men. The whole world is fucked the fuck up.. everyones confused.. even my own girls are sittin here cryin goin through what im goin through.. cant fall outta love and takes shit from their first true love because they HAVE THEM LIKE THAT.


What can you do when a nigga stops loving you? What can you do when a nigga gives up? What can you do when a nigga is happy with another girl? Nothing. You can't force yaself to feel something you won't feel, and YA SHO CANT FORCE A NIGGA TO FEEL SOMETHING THAT HE already WONT FEEL -Kathleen Amon

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All I can say about that is she's right -.- I mean this shit goes both ways. Can you relate?

18 >.<

Just 5 more days.. You could only imagine how I feel about this one. It's not what you think. Many individuals think that it's just a number. But I see it differently. Clubbing isnt even going to be fun haha. Ive done everything there is for an 18 year old to do by the age of 14. I am really money motivated right now. If I could just give up on highschool and start college I would already. This shit is just a set back for me. I am on the look out for a job. I'll be driving reallly reallly soon! =) but aside from that, it isnt really anything that I am looking forward to. Things are getting way better than before. It's my turn. Fuck all of that looking out for the homies. Like really, What homies? hahaha. Well today has been a long and busy day so I am gonna take a nap before I get started on anything else. BTW I need a fucking massage Wink* Wink*

music of the day haha

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Self Explanatory

I Am David

For some odd reason,I love movies where people escape from concentration or prison camps of some sort. Call it taboo. Because although it still goes on today, the majority of our population dont seem to be aware of it. I hate how people can go on with there life knowing that this is going on in the world.

This movie was really good. I just hate how the trailer is all cheesy.

If you DGAF

Then I don't give a fuck and it shouldnt even matter anymore. What can I say, you've moved on to bigger and better things =). Rather than calling you scandalous and saying that you are wrong for the things your doing, your right. Everyone is right in their own way. I may not know all the details that you keep from me, but I am far from stupid. It has come to the point to where it doesnt matter what I say or do which is fine. Consider me out of the picture like Ive always been. Life really does go on and Ive learned that. Who do I blame? NO one. This is just the way it is going to be. Not to be blunt, I just have a strong vibe that it may work for a bit.But it wont work forever. I love you guys and I'm there for you to a certain extent. Have a Lovely life! =)

Deep

Sorry I had to steal this from you Karla Albano

ILML

Aside from being Jobless,Carless, and not doing so financially great, I'm not senseless. I have all these goals that I continue to work hard for, I have a social life to fall back on, and theirs always those people who have always been there for me. Even though all of the unfortunate crap happened to me within these past 2 months, It really weeded out the fakes and all that useless load of junk I was carrying. Life really has been getting better. So I don't have time to be on those stupid little problems that aren't even going to benefit me in my future. Leave me the fuck alone IDC! So if your in my life consider it a privilege it really is time to put the game face on and be heartless ruthless and all of that great stuff. God really does work in mysterious ways. THANK YOU GOD! haha =)

Well its time to get back to work. I still need to find black people like this! haha.

Dream Building

It is beginning to work. If you dont know what dream building is, its where you hope imagine and do all of that good junk. I really just want to get this high school ordeal done and over with so I can move on to bigger and better things. I know it is to soon to tell, but you'll see. I know for a fact everything will come together in time. Just a little bit longer and I'll be in there like swim wear baby! haha. Well my break from homework is over. Its time to hit the books.

Insomnia nights/mornings

Yup I can tell that this will be another one of those. Considering the fact that I have to reevaluate myself and a plethora of homework to do I wont be sleeping for quite a while.

DEEENG!

Dont get jealous! This is my damn fantasy lol. Look at these HOT MAMAS!

2NE1 is the shizznit =]

Something New

For once. It is more than likely that you expected this coming. But thats fine. I intend on keeping this a bit short. Their really isn't a point on doing this besides the comfort of venting. Rather than being at a loss for words, the only thing that bothered me is that you lied. As real as you seem to keep it, this time around you lied. And you hid things. Like really, all you should expect is for me to just let you live your life like you've been. There really is no point in doing anything about it.

I Really Really

Don't have time for games. it has come to the point to where i reallllllyyy dont give a fuck what anyone thinks or says. Especially if they dont even know the half of it.

I am really tired of it. So fine. I give the fuck up.

Point Made

Okay so ive known Nichelle "Neeshy" since like 6th grade. We use to be hella close but idk wtf happened haha. She has and always will be taller than me -.- I hope she doesnt have a cow when she sees that I put these up but It really does make alot of sense. Check it out <3

I Hate.

How I can never have a real conversation with you about something I am really passionate about. Maybe thats why I use to act careless about the things you talk about.

Find A Way

Now why you wanna go and do that, love, huh?
Making things for me towards you harder
Killing me, just when I think we're there
You got the whole vibe and the flows in the air
Telling me 'bout next man
But next man ain't the nigga with the plan
Who got your heart in mind?
It's about time that you just unwind (come on)

Word word, now wait a minute now before you jet it to the curb (yeah, yeah)
Start to make affections, which is good not the hurt
But it, it aint me, and I, I ain't blurred (uh)
I'ma still just chill with you
Maybe things could change if you change your view (come on)
If not then I guess it is cool (yeah)
just, to keep to yourself and adbide by the rules, right

Crash.

This seriously made my day. University students in the "hermit kingdom" are finally beginning to revolt against their "Great Dear Leader". I can see the North crashing down within the next 10 years. This is just a start.

Okay so I was reading this article, and it was talking about how the black market is getting more and more popular out there. If you didnt know, North Korea is very strict. A couple of years ago you could be executed for having a boot leg movie that was foreign. Now that they cant even afford to send people to labor camps, they began to reduce the sentences.



The good part about this is that most students are starting to not gaf. Bootleg movies are everywhere! When they do get caught by police officers, they just toss them a pack of cigarettes imported from china and the cops go on about their business. I believe it is a start! The reason why the government is afraid to allow foreign films to be watched is because they believe that it may start some sort of revolution depending on what movie it may be.



Even if the Juche Ideology has been imprinted in their brain literally since birth, many people are finally beginning to open up their eyes and become open minded.

The one thing I cant wait to do when I turn 18 is apply for LINK .

WITFW

We Need More Black People Like This!

The title says it all! haha jk. Well it is pretty sad. I mean I know that people like to express themselves but fuck can you atleast have a bit of sense? Rather than speaking ebonics, take your ass to speech! I feel like I am being Anti-black but I'm not senseless =].



Well anyways, I am having another one of my insomnia moments for no apparent reason. So I decided to youtube an all time favorite producer of mine. Slakah The BeatChild Is the most versatile and underrated person I have come across. I find that music from other countries are a bit better than the bs we hear. Even the style gets me a bit hyped. It kind of motivates me to get a job.



If you know me well enough, you'd know that I love real Hip-Hop. None of that hibbidy hoo dah jerk my dick off type of shit! hahaha.

Rev is Knowledge.

RevRunWisdom

The immature mind hops from one thing to another; the mature mind seeks to follow through. -(H. Overstreet)


Okay now I am really going to try and sleep.

Note.

The tables didn't turn I just grew the fuck up.

Life Is What You Make It

And I have made mine a living hell. The last thing I have ever wanted was this. My peers are everything I'm not. I am about to be 18 without a job or car. WTF is that!? Maybe people don't think of it as a big deal but for some reason it is to me. I have filled out countless applications and I only recieved 1 call. My mom is forever putting me down by calling me lazy and saying I dont do shit. When I am the only person here that cleans. So the fuck what if I stay in my room all day. Its because I dont want to be bothered by them. On top of that, my little brother moved in my room so I cant stay to myself what so ever. This is all bull shit.

ON A QUEST!

Holey moley. I am forever looking like the bad guy. I really need to know what I did wrong. This time I knojavascript:void(0)w I am not wrong. That's how I know I need to leave this alone.