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Vow

I will never have faith in a female. Never. That goes for all Idgaf who you are. I refuse to do it.

What Would Peter Do? ("Forgetting Sarah Marshall")

When this happens, Its time for me to get lost in work and school. I cant make room to show emotion or any of that. Being that robot can and will only benefit me.

I have no idea how many times ive sat at this computer desk and cried. Cried because I fuck things up. Because I put myself in these situations. It's pretty hard for anyone to bring me down but the ones that can do it really do it. That shit hurts but I'm alright. I had another anti social day where I just lay in bed and think about everything. I did a bit of homework and I finally came out of the room today but that was to use the bathroom and eat.

Looking Back

I know its been told that people shouldnt dwell on the past but you know what, You cant help but to. Do you honestly think you could be the person you are today if you didnt? Shit happens right? But the main thing is to learn from that shit. I am really greatful that I did. Once everything goes passed me I can breath. I'd have to say that 09 was very bitter sweet. I really appreciate it. It caught up to me and I am happy it did.

Okay so today was a me day. I havent really had one of those in forever. I laid in bed, watched tv, and thought. Like deep deep thinking. Life really is a trip. Living it up kills you faster than keeping it moderate does.

I got a phone call from a friend today and he asked me for advice. Shit was a trip because I was literally in that same exact situation. He doesnt know how to appreciate his girl. He does that same exact stupid shit I use to do. I hella tried to warn him the outcome but he decided to be ignorant. I didnt have one of those people to give me the kind of reality check I gave him so I basically fucked myself over. I mean damn thats his life but its going to play out like mine did real talk! I was frustrated but its not my life and I dont have time for that shit. I also dont make time for people who cant make time to appreciate me. Thats all that ive got to say. Let me do me before I can do anything else. I havent been so money motivated in my life. Just watch and see!

In order to become that diamond, you need to hit rock bottom -James Rachal