okay so I deleting alot of things on my hard drive. I accidently found an old file and it had old convos of bree and I and look what I found @.@
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Before I go for my jog
Life sometimes feels too good to be true.
"Go out and tell the society
The talk of the town is on its way
This is not bad only serious
Do understand, don't turn your back on me Doesn't matter heads or tails People know my sins, I'm overwhelmed It's the darkest night in a long long time I¹ve been up all night and walked up and down the stairs No complaints no echoes I'm trying to be good, ain't trying to behave well"
"Sometimes in the fall, fall, fall, fall
There'll be nothing to keep you far from me Before I am long long long gone There'll be nothing to keep me away"
"People calling me up here
Didn't even take some time to look at them I'm long gone If you're walking around then I'll go out too You¹ve been awake all night I¹ve been lying on you thinking the same Lonely and forsaken Would you mind just to try a little less?"
"Go out and tell the society
The talk of the town is on its way
This is not bad only serious
Do understand, don't turn your back on me Doesn't matter heads or tails People know my sins, I'm overwhelmed It's the darkest night in a long long time I¹ve been up all night and walked up and down the stairs No complaints no echoes I'm trying to be good, ain't trying to behave well"
"Sometimes in the fall, fall, fall, fall
There'll be nothing to keep you far from me Before I am long long long gone There'll be nothing to keep me away"
"People calling me up here
Didn't even take some time to look at them I'm long gone If you're walking around then I'll go out too You¹ve been awake all night I¹ve been lying on you thinking the same Lonely and forsaken Would you mind just to try a little less?"
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Update.
Life is great and it's getting soo much better. I haven't blogged about sunday night because I am just waiting for pics. K well time for ze morning jog with my dog =)
Great Jogging music hahah
Great Jogging music hahah
Monday, March 29, 2010
Feelings
I hate feeling like this. I had a dream Bree passed away. I called her to tell her but I made it brief so I don't forget anything while blogging. I fell asleep with pandora on and this song was in the background.
It started out with us hanging out. I'm not sure where we were but we were in someones room. Her and I were making out cuddling and what not under a blanket on a wood floor. Everything was really really happy. I felt comfort to the max. She pulled out a condom but we didn't have sex. We chose to lay next to each other and just enjoy the time we had together. She told me she loves me and I said the same. It came time for her to leave so she did. I didnt hear from her at all and I got kind of worried. I got on aim to see if she had signed on and she wasn't.
At that very moment I got a knock on the door. My neighbor told me that she passed away. I immediately started crying and what not. After I some how ended up at another random house with her family. There was a cop and he told us the story. This kid asked for her help and ended up getting a cheetah to attack her. They had photos and I refused to look and see her like that.
The boy who caused all of it to happen came out of nowhere laughing. I began to charge at him and tried to fight him. It was like a scene from those people who are uncontrollably crying and being restrained by people. Her cousin Eddie held me back saying he would handle it. I then began to run. I wasnt sure where I was going but I was running through mountains and all kinds of scenery.
I somehow ended up on a bayou in Louisiana with my neighbor. There was carrion (fish guts)everywhere and we were on a raft catching shrimp. It was around sunset and I was still crying. He then told me "God took her away from you because you are selfish and you arent doing anything with your life. Get it together" . I didn't want to hear it so I jumped in the muddy water and began to swim until I could gradually walk on the water.
I managed to make it home. Once I signed back on to the computer, I im'd nate and Terrell telling them what happened. My neighbor gave me a gift card to some restaurant. Bree's family and alot of the old swang gang was there and we were waiting to be seated. I was still crying while they were all joking, laughing, and having a good time.
That's just about all I can remember but the feelings felt real. It started out pretty great and next thing you know everything went bad. I am not too sure what this dream means. I can only go about what that website tells me. It does make alot of sense though.
DECIPHERED DREAM-
To dream that you are making out with your ex, signifies your acceptance of certain characteristics of your ex. The dream does not necessarily mean that you want to get back together with him or her. Consider what were the things you liked and disliked about him. These are the same qualities that you are finally acknowledging within your own self.
To dream that you are wrapped in a blanket, indicates your fear of the unknown. You may feel some sort of threat/chaos or sense some coldness from those around you.
To dream that you are covering or wrapping someone in a blanket, suggests you desire to care for that person.
Alternatively, it indicates a lack of integrity on your part. If you are kissing a close friend, then it represents your respect and adoration for your friend. It may or may not signify a romantic interest for him or her.
To dream that you are cuddling with someone, indicates your need for physical and/or emotional contact. Do not overlook the obvious meaning of this dream which suggests your heart's desire for that particular person. Also consider the symbolism of that person you are cuddling with and determine how you need to acknowledge, accept, and unify those qualities in yourself.
To dream of love of being in love, suggests intense feelings carried over from a waking relationship. It implies happiness and contentment with what you have and where you are in life. On the other hand, you may not be getting enough love in your daily life. We naturally long for the sense to belong and to be accepted.
To dream that your friend is in love with you, may be one of wish fulfillment. Perhaps you have developed have developed feelings for your best friend and are wondering how he or she feels. You are so preoccupied with these thoughts that it is evitable that it find its way into your dreaming mind. On the other hand, the dream may also suggests that you have accepted certain qualities of your best best friend and incorporated into your own character.
To dream of an old lover, signifies unfinished/unresolved issues related to that specific relationship. Your current relationship may be awakening some of those same issues.
To see a wrapped condom in your dream, represents your one-sided viewpoints and not allowing others to voice their opinions. It also symbolizes sexual possibilities.
To see a computer in your dream, symbolizes technology, information, and modern life. New areas of opportunities are being opened to you. Alternatively, computers also represent a lack of individuality and non expression of emotions and feelings. Too often you are just going along with the flow, without voicing your own opinions and views. You may also feel a depreciated sense of superiority.
To dream that you ex� has died, indicates that your feelings for you ex are completely dead now. The dream is a metaphor of how you have let go of the past and are ready to move on and fully devote yourself to new relatonships.
To see a cheetah in your dream, suggests that you need to get moving and be more active in pursuit of your goals. Perhaps you have been a little lazy and you need to get off from that seat.
To see a photograph in your dream, indicates that there is a relationship that needs your attention.�You are not looking deep enough in the relationship or situation. It may also mean that you are clinging on to the past or to some false hope.�Consider who or what is on the photo. The image may be trying to take you back to a particular moment in time.
To see shrimp in your dream, suggests that you are feeling overpowered and insignificant.
To see muddy or dirty water in your dream, indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to devote some time to clarify your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, it suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions.
To see a raft in your dream, indicates that you have not built a firm foundation for yourself. There is still much work ahead.
To dream that you are floating on a raft, suggests that you are drifting through life, not knowing where you are headed. You are confused about your purpose and direction in life.
To dream that you are walking on water, suggests that you have supreme and ultimate control over your emotions. It may also suggest that you need to "stay on top" of your emotions and not let them explode out of hand. Alternatively, it is symbolic of faith in yourself.
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.
To dream that no one hears or responds to your cries, represents your helplessness and difficulties and frustrations in trying to communicate with others. You feel that your words are falling on deaf ears. Perhaps your dream is telling you to be more vocal and work harder to get your point across.
To dream that you are running alone, signifies that you will advance to a higher position and surpass your friends in the race for wealth. Alternatively, you may be running from some situation or from temptation. Or it may also mean that you need to hurry up in making a decision.
It started out with us hanging out. I'm not sure where we were but we were in someones room. Her and I were making out cuddling and what not under a blanket on a wood floor. Everything was really really happy. I felt comfort to the max. She pulled out a condom but we didn't have sex. We chose to lay next to each other and just enjoy the time we had together. She told me she loves me and I said the same. It came time for her to leave so she did. I didnt hear from her at all and I got kind of worried. I got on aim to see if she had signed on and she wasn't.
At that very moment I got a knock on the door. My neighbor told me that she passed away. I immediately started crying and what not. After I some how ended up at another random house with her family. There was a cop and he told us the story. This kid asked for her help and ended up getting a cheetah to attack her. They had photos and I refused to look and see her like that.
The boy who caused all of it to happen came out of nowhere laughing. I began to charge at him and tried to fight him. It was like a scene from those people who are uncontrollably crying and being restrained by people. Her cousin Eddie held me back saying he would handle it. I then began to run. I wasnt sure where I was going but I was running through mountains and all kinds of scenery.
I somehow ended up on a bayou in Louisiana with my neighbor. There was carrion (fish guts)everywhere and we were on a raft catching shrimp. It was around sunset and I was still crying. He then told me "God took her away from you because you are selfish and you arent doing anything with your life. Get it together" . I didn't want to hear it so I jumped in the muddy water and began to swim until I could gradually walk on the water.
I managed to make it home. Once I signed back on to the computer, I im'd nate and Terrell telling them what happened. My neighbor gave me a gift card to some restaurant. Bree's family and alot of the old swang gang was there and we were waiting to be seated. I was still crying while they were all joking, laughing, and having a good time.
That's just about all I can remember but the feelings felt real. It started out pretty great and next thing you know everything went bad. I am not too sure what this dream means. I can only go about what that website tells me. It does make alot of sense though.
DECIPHERED DREAM-
To dream that you are making out with your ex, signifies your acceptance of certain characteristics of your ex. The dream does not necessarily mean that you want to get back together with him or her. Consider what were the things you liked and disliked about him. These are the same qualities that you are finally acknowledging within your own self.
To dream that you are wrapped in a blanket, indicates your fear of the unknown. You may feel some sort of threat/chaos or sense some coldness from those around you.
To dream that you are covering or wrapping someone in a blanket, suggests you desire to care for that person.
Alternatively, it indicates a lack of integrity on your part. If you are kissing a close friend, then it represents your respect and adoration for your friend. It may or may not signify a romantic interest for him or her.
To dream that you are cuddling with someone, indicates your need for physical and/or emotional contact. Do not overlook the obvious meaning of this dream which suggests your heart's desire for that particular person. Also consider the symbolism of that person you are cuddling with and determine how you need to acknowledge, accept, and unify those qualities in yourself.
To dream of love of being in love, suggests intense feelings carried over from a waking relationship. It implies happiness and contentment with what you have and where you are in life. On the other hand, you may not be getting enough love in your daily life. We naturally long for the sense to belong and to be accepted.
To dream that your friend is in love with you, may be one of wish fulfillment. Perhaps you have developed have developed feelings for your best friend and are wondering how he or she feels. You are so preoccupied with these thoughts that it is evitable that it find its way into your dreaming mind. On the other hand, the dream may also suggests that you have accepted certain qualities of your best best friend and incorporated into your own character.
To dream of an old lover, signifies unfinished/unresolved issues related to that specific relationship. Your current relationship may be awakening some of those same issues.
To see a wrapped condom in your dream, represents your one-sided viewpoints and not allowing others to voice their opinions. It also symbolizes sexual possibilities.
To see a computer in your dream, symbolizes technology, information, and modern life. New areas of opportunities are being opened to you. Alternatively, computers also represent a lack of individuality and non expression of emotions and feelings. Too often you are just going along with the flow, without voicing your own opinions and views. You may also feel a depreciated sense of superiority.
To dream that you ex� has died, indicates that your feelings for you ex are completely dead now. The dream is a metaphor of how you have let go of the past and are ready to move on and fully devote yourself to new relatonships.
To see a cheetah in your dream, suggests that you need to get moving and be more active in pursuit of your goals. Perhaps you have been a little lazy and you need to get off from that seat.
To see a photograph in your dream, indicates that there is a relationship that needs your attention.�You are not looking deep enough in the relationship or situation. It may also mean that you are clinging on to the past or to some false hope.�Consider who or what is on the photo. The image may be trying to take you back to a particular moment in time.
To see shrimp in your dream, suggests that you are feeling overpowered and insignificant.
To see muddy or dirty water in your dream, indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to devote some time to clarify your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, it suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions.
To see a raft in your dream, indicates that you have not built a firm foundation for yourself. There is still much work ahead.
To dream that you are floating on a raft, suggests that you are drifting through life, not knowing where you are headed. You are confused about your purpose and direction in life.
To dream that you are walking on water, suggests that you have supreme and ultimate control over your emotions. It may also suggest that you need to "stay on top" of your emotions and not let them explode out of hand. Alternatively, it is symbolic of faith in yourself.
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.
To dream that no one hears or responds to your cries, represents your helplessness and difficulties and frustrations in trying to communicate with others. You feel that your words are falling on deaf ears. Perhaps your dream is telling you to be more vocal and work harder to get your point across.
To dream that you are running alone, signifies that you will advance to a higher position and surpass your friends in the race for wealth. Alternatively, you may be running from some situation or from temptation. Or it may also mean that you need to hurry up in making a decision.
Fruity Yogurt!
Well if you didnt know, Alberts parents own a froyo place! I think that they pulled this prank on Tom Due To Chronic Boredom lol
Kid gets smashed in the face with metal plate - Watch more Funny Videos
Kid gets smashed in the face with metal plate - Watch more Funny Videos
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Ironic
I guess the secret does attract some things that you think about into your life. I was just getting lost on youtube and look what I came across lol Song is somewhat sad but pretty good =)
To tell you the truth I don’t have much to offer. But I’ll still give you everything I’ve got, even if it’s barely a thing at all. I’ll give you late nights, long hugs. Someone to talk to, someone to care for, someone who will always be there. A hand to hold, somebody to lean on. And if that’s not enough, just know you have all of me. I hope that’s enough.
— (via mariannmaeee) (via torieex3) (via ldy1nsane)
Taken from kiana since she loves to take my videos! haha jk but it really does describe me =)
— (via mariannmaeee) (via torieex3) (via ldy1nsane)
Taken from kiana since she loves to take my videos! haha jk but it really does describe me =)
Life
Is getting so much better by the day! I remember how this feels and it will never get old. Of course it isnt perfect, but it is getting pretty damn close to it.
This shit goes hard
WEDNESDAY - I was just bumping music and getting dressed until travis called me out of nowhere to see if I wanted to smoke a chronic blunt. We smoked in the room and that shit had me high for most of the day! We ended up smoking hookah at this spot in lemon grove for a bit then we all went our seperate ways. Later on junior picked me up and we dipped to phil's kickback. Wen was acting like a fag (as usual) and everyone wanted to dance I could tell lol. We werent there for that long but I still had fun with old friends. I came home, talked to kiana for a bit then crashed the freak out at around 3.
THURSDAY- Bree came over to hang out for a bit before getting her brother from school. She was reunited with my nephew again lol. I think it's weird how hes only nice when she is there. Other than that hes a little nigger baby (loud and ignorant) hahah jk.
Once she left I went to school for some tests. I was sooo tired omg 0.0 I took a 3 hour nap! That shit was lovely lol.
Junior and I hit up the sorority dorms for a kickback at State. That shit was wild! It was like everyone was throwing a kickback in there dorm! Their doors were open and people were out on the railing and shiit. This girl was like talking so much shit to people. She ended up having a seizure and rolling down 3 freights of stairs while foaming out of the mouth. Everyone was laughing and I was just sitting there like wtf!? call the cops! I know the bitch was talking shit but damn I didnt want her to die! lol. The ambulance eventually came and I just wanted to go home at that point.
My idiotic ass almost felloff the roof again -.- I need to get my house key again beccause this shit is getting annoying lol I made a drunk call to Kiana and then crashed out lol. I dont even know what we were talking about but she can hold a conversation.
FRIDAY- Was fucking bomb! The day was sunny and clear =) Tiana and I hung out. She called it "James day" lol. She picked me up in the morning and we hit up La Jolla. Her radio wasn't working so we just talked the whole way there. We sat in the sand, munched on candy and had a deep talk. lol we did alot of talking! but it was fun. We didnt even end up getting into the water. But we will next time!
After that we cruised around looking at stuff and we accidently found my favorite beach (marine street) It's like a secret beach in the neighborhoods and has some bomb ass scenery. We walked around there for a couple of minutes then hit up L&L.
I haven't eaten Chicken Katsu in forever! On the way home, she said "booshit booshit booshit!" That shit clicked in my head and my forgetting sarah marshal senses started to tingle lol. We just started busting up because no one ever can tell her where that came from. I guess it was one of those "you have to be there to get it" moments.
Right when I got home I finished eating and fell asleep to Forgetting Sarah Marshall. After waking up I had a little bit of chores to knock out before my mom got home. I had sooo much spare time because Junior didnt want to leave to Mary's party until around 10 so I just watched MTV Jams with my dog and kicked it until it was time to get ready.
Travis came over and we ended up waiting for them until 11. He is forever telling me to be ready by the time he gets there yet he comes an hour late! wtheck!? lol Before the party, Travis, 3 others and I cleared 2 bowls out of the bong then headed in.
It wasn't as great as I thought it would be, but I made it worth my money! I havent danced that much in forever freel. I think it's funny when guys just sit there and watch the girls dance. I am sitting there like "wtf!? Idk about you but im getting my moneys worth damn it!" lol. So Jeth and I were swangin on the dance floor with all the females. I swear it's funny how the asian chicks are very selective on who they dance with. Like some black guys would try and dance with them and the asian girls walk away lol. Then I'd dance with them and they'd be like "wtf!?" lol There was this couple dancing and I swear they were fuckin on the floor lol everyone was all crowded around them like it was a porno or something. I was hella lovin how they played the slow songs. I was gettin off real talk! Everyone was looking like "daaamn..." Kathleen can dance but she can dance better when she is faded. Same with mary. I guess its because they get more into it. Idk! Some gangster asian guy punked the dj into playing gangsta party and everyone was like "wtf are you doing!?" haha
Once that happened we dipped back to the sorority dorms for part 2 and got pretty faded. Travis could not stop crackin jokes on Junior I swear lol. You could tell Junior was getting pissed. We had a sex talk and it was pretty intense to the point where I didnt even wanna know anymore lol. Angie was like "Be aggressive be be aggressive" lmfao! it was a really random thing to say. I came home at around 3 and called bree. She was in a bad mood but I wasnt really trippin.
SATURDAY- Was like family day. I took everyone to Marine Street and we had a little picnic thingy there lol. I wish I had my board but it's at Travis' house. The kids and I had played in the water for a bit then we went exploring! My hair was all out and down lol that shit was pretty fun. I found other little spots and we were running around on the cliffs -.- It was kind of scary but we kept on doing it. My little brother was trying to throw rocks at squirrels and im like wtf!? leave them alone! We hiked all the way to that spot where the seals are at. then we came all the way back! that shit took like an hour and half -.- But it gave me time to think and appreciate the things and people I have in my life.
Later I got ready for Philips birthday bbq and talked to bree on the phone for a bit. She's on the reset and hates it! I would be lovin it if I were her but we are all different lol. She is forever on Justin Beibers nuts! She got so defensive because I was fuckin up the song! I couldnt help but laugh when she clicked.
Chitter picked me up and I assumed she knew how to get there so she pulled over and we posted up while waiting for directions. I swear she is a really smart female when it comes down to guys trying to get at her and stuff lol. We logically relate.
The kickback bbq was pretty cool beside the fact that wen's retarded ass dropped a greasy ass piece of chicken on my shoe!The very first thing I did was grab some chicken and a corona =) All there was was mostly lao people. Alot of Donnys hot cousins were there! I always told her that I'd marry my way into her family lol. She all brought up one of her cute cousins and was trying to hook us up! I was like "donny just stop." haha After that, Rose, Chitter and I sat in the car and talked for a long ass time! we were just talking about random things too. Then thats how all that other crap happened.
Once we decided to call it a night, chitter didnt really wanna go home so we posted up down the street from my house and talked a little. But then this guy was walking around at like 2 in the am like who tf does that!? And he looked crazy! he was all walking weird and shit. I seen my sensor light go off so I had her pull up to my house really fast and the gate was open! I got kinda scared and rushed in there. Next thing you know I see someones back and they were facing my door! I started cussin up a storm and it ended up being my little brothers friend! I was like wtf!?!!??!?! I guess he got in trouble at his friend and if he would have went home he would have gotten in trouble. So I let him stay the night. The crazy thing is that that guy who was walking around like that wasn't him. So idk where the guy went!
Chitter was a little creeped out so she went home. I called bree and talked to her for a bit and I decided to lether sleep. Jessica called me out of nowhere to kick it. I was too tired and full so I forgot to call her back.
As for today! I am hitting up marine street for the 3rd time in a row hopefully. I am loving this little tan I got going on haha.
This shit goes hard
WEDNESDAY - I was just bumping music and getting dressed until travis called me out of nowhere to see if I wanted to smoke a chronic blunt. We smoked in the room and that shit had me high for most of the day! We ended up smoking hookah at this spot in lemon grove for a bit then we all went our seperate ways. Later on junior picked me up and we dipped to phil's kickback. Wen was acting like a fag (as usual) and everyone wanted to dance I could tell lol. We werent there for that long but I still had fun with old friends. I came home, talked to kiana for a bit then crashed the freak out at around 3.
THURSDAY- Bree came over to hang out for a bit before getting her brother from school. She was reunited with my nephew again lol. I think it's weird how hes only nice when she is there. Other than that hes a little nigger baby (loud and ignorant) hahah jk.
Once she left I went to school for some tests. I was sooo tired omg 0.0 I took a 3 hour nap! That shit was lovely lol.
Junior and I hit up the sorority dorms for a kickback at State. That shit was wild! It was like everyone was throwing a kickback in there dorm! Their doors were open and people were out on the railing and shiit. This girl was like talking so much shit to people. She ended up having a seizure and rolling down 3 freights of stairs while foaming out of the mouth. Everyone was laughing and I was just sitting there like wtf!? call the cops! I know the bitch was talking shit but damn I didnt want her to die! lol. The ambulance eventually came and I just wanted to go home at that point.
My idiotic ass almost felloff the roof again -.- I need to get my house key again beccause this shit is getting annoying lol I made a drunk call to Kiana and then crashed out lol. I dont even know what we were talking about but she can hold a conversation.
FRIDAY- Was fucking bomb! The day was sunny and clear =) Tiana and I hung out. She called it "James day" lol. She picked me up in the morning and we hit up La Jolla. Her radio wasn't working so we just talked the whole way there. We sat in the sand, munched on candy and had a deep talk. lol we did alot of talking! but it was fun. We didnt even end up getting into the water. But we will next time!
After that we cruised around looking at stuff and we accidently found my favorite beach (marine street) It's like a secret beach in the neighborhoods and has some bomb ass scenery. We walked around there for a couple of minutes then hit up L&L.
I haven't eaten Chicken Katsu in forever! On the way home, she said "booshit booshit booshit!" That shit clicked in my head and my forgetting sarah marshal senses started to tingle lol. We just started busting up because no one ever can tell her where that came from. I guess it was one of those "you have to be there to get it" moments.
Right when I got home I finished eating and fell asleep to Forgetting Sarah Marshall. After waking up I had a little bit of chores to knock out before my mom got home. I had sooo much spare time because Junior didnt want to leave to Mary's party until around 10 so I just watched MTV Jams with my dog and kicked it until it was time to get ready.
Travis came over and we ended up waiting for them until 11. He is forever telling me to be ready by the time he gets there yet he comes an hour late! wtheck!? lol Before the party, Travis, 3 others and I cleared 2 bowls out of the bong then headed in.
It wasn't as great as I thought it would be, but I made it worth my money! I havent danced that much in forever freel. I think it's funny when guys just sit there and watch the girls dance. I am sitting there like "wtf!? Idk about you but im getting my moneys worth damn it!" lol. So Jeth and I were swangin on the dance floor with all the females. I swear it's funny how the asian chicks are very selective on who they dance with. Like some black guys would try and dance with them and the asian girls walk away lol. Then I'd dance with them and they'd be like "wtf!?" lol There was this couple dancing and I swear they were fuckin on the floor lol everyone was all crowded around them like it was a porno or something. I was hella lovin how they played the slow songs. I was gettin off real talk! Everyone was looking like "daaamn..." Kathleen can dance but she can dance better when she is faded. Same with mary. I guess its because they get more into it. Idk! Some gangster asian guy punked the dj into playing gangsta party and everyone was like "wtf are you doing!?" haha
Once that happened we dipped back to the sorority dorms for part 2 and got pretty faded. Travis could not stop crackin jokes on Junior I swear lol. You could tell Junior was getting pissed. We had a sex talk and it was pretty intense to the point where I didnt even wanna know anymore lol. Angie was like "Be aggressive be be aggressive" lmfao! it was a really random thing to say. I came home at around 3 and called bree. She was in a bad mood but I wasnt really trippin.
SATURDAY- Was like family day. I took everyone to Marine Street and we had a little picnic thingy there lol. I wish I had my board but it's at Travis' house. The kids and I had played in the water for a bit then we went exploring! My hair was all out and down lol that shit was pretty fun. I found other little spots and we were running around on the cliffs -.- It was kind of scary but we kept on doing it. My little brother was trying to throw rocks at squirrels and im like wtf!? leave them alone! We hiked all the way to that spot where the seals are at. then we came all the way back! that shit took like an hour and half -.- But it gave me time to think and appreciate the things and people I have in my life.
Later I got ready for Philips birthday bbq and talked to bree on the phone for a bit. She's on the reset and hates it! I would be lovin it if I were her but we are all different lol. She is forever on Justin Beibers nuts! She got so defensive because I was fuckin up the song! I couldnt help but laugh when she clicked.
Chitter picked me up and I assumed she knew how to get there so she pulled over and we posted up while waiting for directions. I swear she is a really smart female when it comes down to guys trying to get at her and stuff lol. We logically relate.
The kickback bbq was pretty cool beside the fact that wen's retarded ass dropped a greasy ass piece of chicken on my shoe!The very first thing I did was grab some chicken and a corona =) All there was was mostly lao people. Alot of Donnys hot cousins were there! I always told her that I'd marry my way into her family lol. She all brought up one of her cute cousins and was trying to hook us up! I was like "donny just stop." haha After that, Rose, Chitter and I sat in the car and talked for a long ass time! we were just talking about random things too. Then thats how all that other crap happened.
Once we decided to call it a night, chitter didnt really wanna go home so we posted up down the street from my house and talked a little. But then this guy was walking around at like 2 in the am like who tf does that!? And he looked crazy! he was all walking weird and shit. I seen my sensor light go off so I had her pull up to my house really fast and the gate was open! I got kinda scared and rushed in there. Next thing you know I see someones back and they were facing my door! I started cussin up a storm and it ended up being my little brothers friend! I was like wtf!?!!??!?! I guess he got in trouble at his friend and if he would have went home he would have gotten in trouble. So I let him stay the night. The crazy thing is that that guy who was walking around like that wasn't him. So idk where the guy went!
Chitter was a little creeped out so she went home. I called bree and talked to her for a bit and I decided to lether sleep. Jessica called me out of nowhere to kick it. I was too tired and full so I forgot to call her back.
As for today! I am hitting up marine street for the 3rd time in a row hopefully. I am loving this little tan I got going on haha.
What is it
With people thinking just because you had something in the past that wasnt even all that can claim you as there's out in public and stuff like that? I mean damn I don't mean to make her feel dumb but I haven'e seen or talked to you in forever. What makes you think you can just try and be up on me? Not even on some cocky shit. It's just a little annoying.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
One Too Many
I swear its like I thank you every single day! Because I am truly grateful. I feel like you have my cure for everything. There is really nothiing I wouldnt do for you. Just say the words and I am there.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Holy Macarol!
look at my black ass cousin lol this nigga is forever doing something random.
I'm done blogging for the night. It's time to hit the sack (LITERALLY!) LOL JK
I'm done blogging for the night. It's time to hit the sack (LITERALLY!) LOL JK
Priceless! LOL
jameswantsole 9:15 pm
(9:15:07 PM): DICK DEBSTA!
(9:15:09 PM): lol jk
Dayum Debbie 9:15 pm
(9:15:17 PM): jackin off james!
(9:15:19 PM): lmfao
(9:15:07 PM): DICK DEBSTA!
(9:15:09 PM): lol jk
Dayum Debbie 9:15 pm
(9:15:17 PM): jackin off james!
(9:15:19 PM): lmfao
Soon To Be
I barely thought about you yesterday and today aside from the fact that I need that movie back since my aunts been asking about it. Thats all that I really have to say about that.
But on a good note! Today was fairly productive. I woke up and decided to play with my pit bull for about an hour or so. We were on a good one lol. It really is true about how they say a dog is a mans best friend. He is finally starting to listen to me =). Pretty soon I am gonna take him jogging with me but I'm not sure if I am ready for that yet lol.
After that, I bumped music and chatted on aim for a bit until bree hit me up to chill.
We had one of those venting sessions and ended up going to eat sandwiches at her cousins work and the rest of her cousins popped up lol. They are pretty funny. I could imagine them having a reality show or something I swear! Especially when bree was chasing martin (her little chubby cousin) around the aisles haha.
On the way back to my house she played this song that she said use to remind her of me. It was by mary J and Musiq. I see why -.- but it was a pretty good song. It basically talked about alot of the stuff her and I had once went through. I was soo full from that sandwich we ate I just wanted to take a nap @.@ But I just read a book while she did her homework. I swear she has like turrets when she does her homework! lol jk but she couldnt stay quiet! It wasn't annoying though haha She took off with one of my shirts that I am hoping to get back.
After she left I crashed out and woke up to some of that fried chinese chicken. That shit never gets old I swear! lol.
Now I am here chatting with Palina about hip hop like we use to which never gets old! I think its a little weird how we had a thing back in the day haha but shes still cool and talented. April 9th everyone should go see her perform spoken word!
But on a good note! Today was fairly productive. I woke up and decided to play with my pit bull for about an hour or so. We were on a good one lol. It really is true about how they say a dog is a mans best friend. He is finally starting to listen to me =). Pretty soon I am gonna take him jogging with me but I'm not sure if I am ready for that yet lol.
After that, I bumped music and chatted on aim for a bit until bree hit me up to chill.
We had one of those venting sessions and ended up going to eat sandwiches at her cousins work and the rest of her cousins popped up lol. They are pretty funny. I could imagine them having a reality show or something I swear! Especially when bree was chasing martin (her little chubby cousin) around the aisles haha.
On the way back to my house she played this song that she said use to remind her of me. It was by mary J and Musiq. I see why -.- but it was a pretty good song. It basically talked about alot of the stuff her and I had once went through. I was soo full from that sandwich we ate I just wanted to take a nap @.@ But I just read a book while she did her homework. I swear she has like turrets when she does her homework! lol jk but she couldnt stay quiet! It wasn't annoying though haha She took off with one of my shirts that I am hoping to get back.
After she left I crashed out and woke up to some of that fried chinese chicken. That shit never gets old I swear! lol.
Now I am here chatting with Palina about hip hop like we use to which never gets old! I think its a little weird how we had a thing back in the day haha but shes still cool and talented. April 9th everyone should go see her perform spoken word!
Wooty
LOL That song has been stuck in my head for the past 4 hours! So Travis got his license today and he popped up in my driveway at around 8. We cruised for a bit and ended up at Jenna and Ashleys house with "chicken". Ashley was in a bad mood so she just stayed in her room 0.0 but we all smoked a bowl of hookah and watched MTV Jams. Ironically neighbors know my name came on @.@ lol we ended the night around 11 and now here I am! Nothing big but a pretty chill night.
Big Bro
I am happy to say that I am an older brother. Although I am an ass hole to them alot I will go pretty far to make sure they are alright. I never thought I'd see the day that my little sister came to me for her boy problems. I didnt even blow up. But I feel good that I helped her out big time. It's crazy how our dad isnt around and I take that role. I know I am only 18 but I love those kids big time.
DAAYYUUMMM
I wish I knew a girl who could do this lol. Not even like on some horny shiit I just think its sexy though. BTW I did not go looking for this Mo sent it to me lol
Monday, March 22, 2010
DMV pt. ????
I hope that the DMV this morning isn't a hassle. They say mondays are the worst times to go but I am hoping that it will play in Junior and mines favors. Hasta Luego Muchachos!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Kids
This weekend went from chill to hot! if you catch my drift haha. So Friday I decided not to go out and party. Instead Travis and a couple of his friends went to this view in lemon grove. We drank 40's and bumped Nujabes. I even poured a little out for him and my uncle lol. It was hella chill. We hot boxed the car with hookah. That shit looked like those videos when they get out of the car and smoke comes out of everywhere. I hate those gut feelings I get when I feel like somethings wrong with a certain someone. Shit sucks haha. We called it a night at around 2. I went home, talked on the phone for a bit and crashed out.
The next morning (saturday) I got a wake up call from my x. She called crying so thats prolly where that feeling came from. Her and I could never have a civilized talk. It always escalates. It kind of reminds me of brees parents because they still have love eachother. Then again idk. I found out some stuff that kind of made me laugh but then again made me feel ugly. It didnt fuck up my day though. But I mean honestly, I think that people make it soo obvious that they are bothered by something even if they dont speak on it. I am no dumby. Nor am I trying to be conceited. You're saying one thing but doing the complete opposite. I kinda wish I would have told her to never forget where she came from like what duke said. After that bree and I talked for a couple of hours then we went on about our day. I got ready and waited for to get picked up. I ended up waiting for nothing but its whatever. The rest of the day I slept and watched movies.
Junior wasn't trying to go to the lounge and I wasnt really trying to go to matts kickback so I ended up spending the night at my homegirls house. That shit was like DejaVu but with a different person. Now I get the term "neighbors know my name". Thats how I know its really over. I didn't do it out of revenge or anything. But I mean I already know it's not like it matters what one another does anymore. That is how it has played out every single time.
This morning, I had no ride since she couldnt take her car out so I had to bribe my older sister in order to pick me up. That ass hole is making me make her 3 cd's. Tell me why she already had the list made! hahaha
Now the reason why the title is called kids is because when I came home, It was like a scene from out of the movie kids! My little brother had hickeys on his neck and so did my little sisters friend. On top of that my little sisters room smelled like weed. I forgot to mention that my mom went to oakland for the weekend. Their was 2 of my little brothers friends and my little sisters friend. My older sister was pissed off to the max. No one was trying to talk so I had them all sit down on the couch and caught them all up in lies. My little sisters friend finally came clean and there was one little boy who was just wayyy to quiet. Long story short, they all started telling on eachother! They gave up the pipe and they had 2 baggies of weed! My little brother was eating some noodles and I could tell he had the munchies lol. I wanted to laugh but then again I was trying to play big bro. So since they thought it was funny I made up chores for them to do. I said either they get told on (which wouldhave gotten me in trouble) or they clean. And I can tell you right now, this house is looking pretty spiffy!
My older sister took the weed for herself lol I kind of wanted to take it but it was some reggie and I didnt want them to know I smoke weed lol. But I do have a piece now thanks to them lol. I did the cold spoon method to my little brother and my older sister did it to the other girl. They are cleaning the back yard right now. Saved me alot of work to do for the week =)
As for the rest of the day, Bree and I are suppose to go job hunting and out to eat so I need to start getting ready. Hasta Luego!
The next morning (saturday) I got a wake up call from my x. She called crying so thats prolly where that feeling came from. Her and I could never have a civilized talk. It always escalates. It kind of reminds me of brees parents because they still have love eachother. Then again idk. I found out some stuff that kind of made me laugh but then again made me feel ugly. It didnt fuck up my day though. But I mean honestly, I think that people make it soo obvious that they are bothered by something even if they dont speak on it. I am no dumby. Nor am I trying to be conceited. You're saying one thing but doing the complete opposite. I kinda wish I would have told her to never forget where she came from like what duke said. After that bree and I talked for a couple of hours then we went on about our day. I got ready and waited for to get picked up. I ended up waiting for nothing but its whatever. The rest of the day I slept and watched movies.
Junior wasn't trying to go to the lounge and I wasnt really trying to go to matts kickback so I ended up spending the night at my homegirls house. That shit was like DejaVu but with a different person. Now I get the term "neighbors know my name". Thats how I know its really over. I didn't do it out of revenge or anything. But I mean I already know it's not like it matters what one another does anymore. That is how it has played out every single time.
This morning, I had no ride since she couldnt take her car out so I had to bribe my older sister in order to pick me up. That ass hole is making me make her 3 cd's. Tell me why she already had the list made! hahaha
Now the reason why the title is called kids is because when I came home, It was like a scene from out of the movie kids! My little brother had hickeys on his neck and so did my little sisters friend. On top of that my little sisters room smelled like weed. I forgot to mention that my mom went to oakland for the weekend. Their was 2 of my little brothers friends and my little sisters friend. My older sister was pissed off to the max. No one was trying to talk so I had them all sit down on the couch and caught them all up in lies. My little sisters friend finally came clean and there was one little boy who was just wayyy to quiet. Long story short, they all started telling on eachother! They gave up the pipe and they had 2 baggies of weed! My little brother was eating some noodles and I could tell he had the munchies lol. I wanted to laugh but then again I was trying to play big bro. So since they thought it was funny I made up chores for them to do. I said either they get told on (which wouldhave gotten me in trouble) or they clean. And I can tell you right now, this house is looking pretty spiffy!
My older sister took the weed for herself lol I kind of wanted to take it but it was some reggie and I didnt want them to know I smoke weed lol. But I do have a piece now thanks to them lol. I did the cold spoon method to my little brother and my older sister did it to the other girl. They are cleaning the back yard right now. Saved me alot of work to do for the week =)
As for the rest of the day, Bree and I are suppose to go job hunting and out to eat so I need to start getting ready. Hasta Luego!
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Grateful
First and foremost I am grateful for Breanna Mesa. I can depend on her for literally ANYTHING. She loves me and I love her. We think about eachother literally everyday. I could call her at 4 in the am and she will answer to talk to me. And to this day I have not met anyone who compares to her. They say opposites attract but we've got alot in common.
I am also grateful for the light at the end of the tunnel. The friends that I have. The positive thoughts that cross my mind.
My family and I are beginning to bond again ever since I fought for my little bro and sis. My mom is finally starting to understand me.
God has brought people down here to guide me to the fullest.
Just being able to wake up and look at all the things I am bound to have on my dream board.
My cousin Tracey who has been in jail for over 5 years and did a 180 degree turn. He is going places and That hella motivates me.
The license I will be having on thursday.
The money thats in my wallet
The way I thought I could start fresh with someone dirty.
My mom doing the best she can t o keep us all happy even if she has a bad way of showing it.
I am also grateful for the females who think they can try and be with me.
I love the fact that I can be me. The fact that the people that are in my life are really there to stay.
The confidence I have in the unknown future.
The upgrade that I made.
The clothes that I have.
The fact that I can dance.Idk what I would do if I couldnt!
The car that I will be receiving after I am done with high school.
That hip hop that I can bump.
The females that are attracted to me.
The fact that I dont need someone to make me happy.
My nephews that keep me motivated.
The ball being in my court.
The way I am irreplaceable.
The way logic makes emotions simple.
Moving on with my life is easier than I thought.
The fact that I know that you aren't over me.
The fact that the hole you have dug for yourself will eventually be too deep for you to get out of.
The way you exploited me.
The fact that I can handle the truth.
These are all the things that I am grateful for.
I am also grateful for the light at the end of the tunnel. The friends that I have. The positive thoughts that cross my mind.
My family and I are beginning to bond again ever since I fought for my little bro and sis. My mom is finally starting to understand me.
God has brought people down here to guide me to the fullest.
Just being able to wake up and look at all the things I am bound to have on my dream board.
My cousin Tracey who has been in jail for over 5 years and did a 180 degree turn. He is going places and That hella motivates me.
The license I will be having on thursday.
The money thats in my wallet
The way I thought I could start fresh with someone dirty.
My mom doing the best she can t o keep us all happy even if she has a bad way of showing it.
I am also grateful for the females who think they can try and be with me.
I love the fact that I can be me. The fact that the people that are in my life are really there to stay.
The confidence I have in the unknown future.
The upgrade that I made.
The clothes that I have.
The fact that I can dance.Idk what I would do if I couldnt!
The car that I will be receiving after I am done with high school.
That hip hop that I can bump.
The females that are attracted to me.
The fact that I dont need someone to make me happy.
My nephews that keep me motivated.
The ball being in my court.
The way I am irreplaceable.
The way logic makes emotions simple.
Moving on with my life is easier than I thought.
The fact that I know that you aren't over me.
The fact that the hole you have dug for yourself will eventually be too deep for you to get out of.
The way you exploited me.
The fact that I can handle the truth.
These are all the things that I am grateful for.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Worse of the Worst
Nujabes passed away. They just released this to the public not too long ago. He's been gone for a couple of months. Talk about a waste of talent. He's a real hip hop icon in my books.
LMFAO THE GUY TOWARD THE END IS TRAVIS!
LMFAO THE GUY TOWARD THE END IS TRAVIS!
OUTSKIIIE!
I had a sick ass dream this morning. That one tribe song by black eyed peas song kept on replaying in my dream but thats because my little brother left with it on repeat when he left for school. I'm not sure why but the cops were chasing after me. Like all over the news and every tv I passed was on. Over 30 cars were chasing me and the chopper was on me. This might sound like a bad dream but everyone I ran into other than the cops were trying to help me out.
It started in eastlake. I just ran into a random house and all these cop cars were surrounding the house telling me to come out. This white lady handed me some acura keys and told me to go while she distracts them. I smashed through the garage and did one of those drift skid thingies and the chase was on. For some reason all I could think about was just getting to my dads house since it's in the middle of nowhere. The cops were tracing my car with onstar so I ditched the car.
I ended up running to a kfc in clairmont.I hopped out leaving everything behind. IRDAG at that moment. The shiit just felt soo real but at the same time I was happy. When I went into kfc I was all on the ordering tv's and the guy handed me a bucket of chicken, I tossed on the floor upset yelling that I didnt want no fucking chicken. I looked on the floor and a set of keys were on them. And what do you know, my celica was waiting for me outside. I was out! the cops were just pulling up to the acura as I was driving out. The chase was back on and went on until it had gotten dark.
I went to my supposed "girlfriend"s house, kissed my new born baby bye and headed back out. This time I ended up driving to korea town in l.a. I was still at large and there were cops just everywhere. I managed to flee. But as I did a bathroom stop in one of those little streets made up of nothing but lights there was a big ass asian guy in the bathroom, he looked sort of like a bodyguard. Everything was calm until he tried to hit people for no reason. Those people ended up being undercovers. At that time, interpol (european police) stormed into the bathroom. I know this isnt common but there was a back door in the bathroom that lead to the alley. they were really close to me until right when I got to the end of the alley, my older sister was driving a van. My aunt was in the passenger and my little sister and brother slid the side door open. I jumped in and we were off. They were telling me I need to be more careful next time. My aunt got out of the car and went for the first car she seen. Turned it on and told me to get in and dont stop driving for anything. it was like a diablo from gta3 haha So I was just bumping and for some reason I ended up at pattys house.
We were hanging out for hours and hours until the cops stormed in from all windows and doors. Keep in mind that I am still happy but kind of scared. It felt real! like i could put my hands in front of my face and stuff. Every single cop had a different face. They got within 5 feet of me and I dropped under the floor. I ended up in some sort of tunnel where an asian flight attendent said something like "right this way sir" smiling. The tunnel was made up of concrete and had bright lights. Once I got to the end of it, there was a helicopter light on the entrance. She then handed me a set of keys saying, "the spot lights on you" I smiled hopped in my Lexus LFA and once took off into the sunrise not stopping. There were mountains everywhere. I was at peace. The mountains were like shining and I was above the clouds. But for some reason I felt empty, like there was no one to share it with. I took the car and attempted to go off of a mountain. IDK why but I ended up outside of the car. and the car tumbled and tumbled.
At that moment Juniors friend came up in a pick-up truck and told me to hop in. He was eating fried chicken and smiling! he said "I'm gonna take you to your dad." Once I got to the outside of the door, I looked at the house. Once I touched the door handle I woke up.
I have no idea what the dream means, but I enjoyed it. I tried to decipher it online and this is what I got.
To see a key in your dream, symbolizes opportunities, access, control, secrets, or responsibilities. You may be locking away your own inner feelings and emotions.�Or you are close to unlocking the answer to some problem.
To dream that you find keys, signifies that you have found a solution to a problem.
To dream that you are driving a car, denotes your ambition, your drive and your ability to navigate from one stage of your life to another. Consider how smooth or rough the car ride is. If you are driving the car, then you are taking an active role in the way your life is going.
The police also symbolizes structure, rules, power, authority and control.
Consider the distance or gap between you and your pursuer. This indicates your closeness to the issue. If the pursuer is gaining on you, then it suggests that the problem is not going to go away. The problem will surround you until you confront and address it. However, if you are able to widen the gap between your pursuer, then you are able to successful distance yourself from the problem. In essence, the problem is fading away.
To dream that you are on TV, suggests that there is something that you want to broadcast to the whole world. You have the desire to express yourself. Alternatively, you are trying to take a more objective view on your life issues.
If you dream that you forgot you had a baby, then it suggests that you are trying hide your own vulnerabilities; You do not want to let others know of your weaknesses.
To see chickens in your dream, symbolize cowardliness and a lack of willpower. The dream may be a pun on being a chicken or chickening out of some situation. Chickens also represent excessive chatter and gossip. Listen closely to what people may be saying about you or what you are saying about others. (KEEP IN MIND THAT I THREW THE BUCKET OF CHICKEN!) HAHA
To see your own family in your dream, represents security, warmth and love. It could also symbolize bitterness, jealousy, or rivalry, depending on your relationship with your family.
To see the sunrise in your dream, represents new beginnings, renewal of life and energy, and fulfillment of your goals and purpose. It may also denote that you are about to embark on a new adventure in your personal life.
To dream that you commit suicide, may suggest that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself and hello to a whole new you. It is symbolic of a personal transformation or a new stage in your life.
To see a truck in your dream, suggests that you are overworked. You are taking on too many tasks and are weighed down by all the responsibilities.
It started in eastlake. I just ran into a random house and all these cop cars were surrounding the house telling me to come out. This white lady handed me some acura keys and told me to go while she distracts them. I smashed through the garage and did one of those drift skid thingies and the chase was on. For some reason all I could think about was just getting to my dads house since it's in the middle of nowhere. The cops were tracing my car with onstar so I ditched the car.
I ended up running to a kfc in clairmont.I hopped out leaving everything behind. IRDAG at that moment. The shiit just felt soo real but at the same time I was happy. When I went into kfc I was all on the ordering tv's and the guy handed me a bucket of chicken, I tossed on the floor upset yelling that I didnt want no fucking chicken. I looked on the floor and a set of keys were on them. And what do you know, my celica was waiting for me outside. I was out! the cops were just pulling up to the acura as I was driving out. The chase was back on and went on until it had gotten dark.
I went to my supposed "girlfriend"s house, kissed my new born baby bye and headed back out. This time I ended up driving to korea town in l.a. I was still at large and there were cops just everywhere. I managed to flee. But as I did a bathroom stop in one of those little streets made up of nothing but lights there was a big ass asian guy in the bathroom, he looked sort of like a bodyguard. Everything was calm until he tried to hit people for no reason. Those people ended up being undercovers. At that time, interpol (european police) stormed into the bathroom. I know this isnt common but there was a back door in the bathroom that lead to the alley. they were really close to me until right when I got to the end of the alley, my older sister was driving a van. My aunt was in the passenger and my little sister and brother slid the side door open. I jumped in and we were off. They were telling me I need to be more careful next time. My aunt got out of the car and went for the first car she seen. Turned it on and told me to get in and dont stop driving for anything. it was like a diablo from gta3 haha So I was just bumping and for some reason I ended up at pattys house.
We were hanging out for hours and hours until the cops stormed in from all windows and doors. Keep in mind that I am still happy but kind of scared. It felt real! like i could put my hands in front of my face and stuff. Every single cop had a different face. They got within 5 feet of me and I dropped under the floor. I ended up in some sort of tunnel where an asian flight attendent said something like "right this way sir" smiling. The tunnel was made up of concrete and had bright lights. Once I got to the end of it, there was a helicopter light on the entrance. She then handed me a set of keys saying, "the spot lights on you" I smiled hopped in my Lexus LFA and once took off into the sunrise not stopping. There were mountains everywhere. I was at peace. The mountains were like shining and I was above the clouds. But for some reason I felt empty, like there was no one to share it with. I took the car and attempted to go off of a mountain. IDK why but I ended up outside of the car. and the car tumbled and tumbled.
At that moment Juniors friend came up in a pick-up truck and told me to hop in. He was eating fried chicken and smiling! he said "I'm gonna take you to your dad." Once I got to the outside of the door, I looked at the house. Once I touched the door handle I woke up.
I have no idea what the dream means, but I enjoyed it. I tried to decipher it online and this is what I got.
To see a key in your dream, symbolizes opportunities, access, control, secrets, or responsibilities. You may be locking away your own inner feelings and emotions.�Or you are close to unlocking the answer to some problem.
To dream that you find keys, signifies that you have found a solution to a problem.
To dream that you are driving a car, denotes your ambition, your drive and your ability to navigate from one stage of your life to another. Consider how smooth or rough the car ride is. If you are driving the car, then you are taking an active role in the way your life is going.
The police also symbolizes structure, rules, power, authority and control.
Consider the distance or gap between you and your pursuer. This indicates your closeness to the issue. If the pursuer is gaining on you, then it suggests that the problem is not going to go away. The problem will surround you until you confront and address it. However, if you are able to widen the gap between your pursuer, then you are able to successful distance yourself from the problem. In essence, the problem is fading away.
To dream that you are on TV, suggests that there is something that you want to broadcast to the whole world. You have the desire to express yourself. Alternatively, you are trying to take a more objective view on your life issues.
If you dream that you forgot you had a baby, then it suggests that you are trying hide your own vulnerabilities; You do not want to let others know of your weaknesses.
To see chickens in your dream, symbolize cowardliness and a lack of willpower. The dream may be a pun on being a chicken or chickening out of some situation. Chickens also represent excessive chatter and gossip. Listen closely to what people may be saying about you or what you are saying about others. (KEEP IN MIND THAT I THREW THE BUCKET OF CHICKEN!) HAHA
To see your own family in your dream, represents security, warmth and love. It could also symbolize bitterness, jealousy, or rivalry, depending on your relationship with your family.
To see the sunrise in your dream, represents new beginnings, renewal of life and energy, and fulfillment of your goals and purpose. It may also denote that you are about to embark on a new adventure in your personal life.
To dream that you commit suicide, may suggest that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself and hello to a whole new you. It is symbolic of a personal transformation or a new stage in your life.
To see a truck in your dream, suggests that you are overworked. You are taking on too many tasks and are weighed down by all the responsibilities.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
It is What it is
I feel like I should be sleeping right now but we all know im a late night creeper -.- So today might not have been the best day but it wasnt the worst. Honestly, I am grateful for times like this. Because it shows how much she truly cares. How much she unconditionally loves me. That is just about all the comfort I need. Time to make another attempt at rest. Cant wait to dream! haha nighty night!
FAN
HAHAH so I counted 6 blogs for the day which I rarely ever do! but 6 is a bad number so this is the 7th. I titled it the very first thing I looked at. Today is another great day btw! I wanna beach it but everyones busy. So I'm gonna go back to yokoz to gain some weight. haha jk. Btw My 6 pack is really coming in! fuck yeah summer is gonna be great! Hasta Luego!
xcvbnm
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you've never met or knew.
Habits
I'd have to admit, I am beginning to somewhat go back to my old ways. Being the fact that right now only one person deserves me at my best, I don't plan on being with anyone for a long while. But that's just one of those things that seem sort of possible but not probable. I don't let that cross my mind like before.
I dont just fuck every girl I meet. I wanna put that out there right now. I'm simply testing the waters. It's like if I were to take a canoe ride down a river not knowing where its going to take me or what paths I may choose. Regardless I'm happy one way or another.
I dont just fuck every girl I meet. I wanna put that out there right now. I'm simply testing the waters. It's like if I were to take a canoe ride down a river not knowing where its going to take me or what paths I may choose. Regardless I'm happy one way or another.
Pride takes over wise decisions because sometimes being wise isnt the best thing to do.
I lost my first fight guys! haha Friday was a win but tuesday was a loss. My face isnt that jacked up. Honestly I feel like one of those ufc fighters how they heal up so damn fast! Ive been icing this mofo and beaching it like there is no tomorrow! sheeesh! Not to sound "psycho" but I lived to fight another day and I am going back for another one sometime soon. I don't take losses easy. Unless I know they arent worth it anymore.
its crazy how that ties into what I was just blogging about. "Have a nice life. Oh but I'll say this I'm not the one who lost anything here. Kay bye bitch." To think that 3 sentences launched me far far away into the sky! This isnt even to make someone feel bad or think bad of her. Im still grateful.
But yeah atleast I'm not the only one with damage done to them. The only reason why it stopped was because the cops came. I still wanted to go but he didn't -.-
After that Travis and I smoked some hookah while I iced my battle scars haha. 2 of his mexican friends came up bumpin reggae. They arent your typical mexicans.Well sort of. They were kind of like socials who rock hollister but they were paisas haha. We both put in on a bowl called "Hog Breath" but ill tell you it was soo great! They had a secret spot in some field type thing on a hill. I felt like I was on spring valley (the actual hills and mountains) or something but it went down.
After that we dropped off one of his friends and went to the guys girlfriends house. He has a system so we kept on bumping 1800 by snoop dogg. That shit would have felt better if I was rolling (which I no longer do!)
He has a white girlfriend and she had a white friend named jenna. I seriously don't like white girls but she was one of those ones that you see from the hills or something IDK! And it wasnt because I was blown. The biggest turn off is that she listened to country music -.- I started showing her other music haha and she liked it! Well I hope she wasnt being fake about it @.@ anyways we all drank some corona and limes and smoked 3 bowls of something called "sweet tooth" IDK HOW TF THEY COME UP WITH THESE NAMES BUT THEY ARE THE SHIIT! I havent felt soo great in a long ass time. We were bumping J-Dillas remix to secrets of the sand and eating digiorno or whatever you called it. Jenna loves 1000 ways to die like me and we wouldnt stfu about it "JENNA JAMES STFU WE GET IT!" lol!
The night ended around 1 and I went home to sleep like a baby.
its crazy how that ties into what I was just blogging about. "Have a nice life. Oh but I'll say this I'm not the one who lost anything here. Kay bye bitch." To think that 3 sentences launched me far far away into the sky! This isnt even to make someone feel bad or think bad of her. Im still grateful.
But yeah atleast I'm not the only one with damage done to them. The only reason why it stopped was because the cops came. I still wanted to go but he didn't -.-
After that Travis and I smoked some hookah while I iced my battle scars haha. 2 of his mexican friends came up bumpin reggae. They arent your typical mexicans.Well sort of. They were kind of like socials who rock hollister but they were paisas haha. We both put in on a bowl called "Hog Breath" but ill tell you it was soo great! They had a secret spot in some field type thing on a hill. I felt like I was on spring valley (the actual hills and mountains) or something but it went down.
After that we dropped off one of his friends and went to the guys girlfriends house. He has a system so we kept on bumping 1800 by snoop dogg. That shit would have felt better if I was rolling (which I no longer do!)
He has a white girlfriend and she had a white friend named jenna. I seriously don't like white girls but she was one of those ones that you see from the hills or something IDK! And it wasnt because I was blown. The biggest turn off is that she listened to country music -.- I started showing her other music haha and she liked it! Well I hope she wasnt being fake about it @.@ anyways we all drank some corona and limes and smoked 3 bowls of something called "sweet tooth" IDK HOW TF THEY COME UP WITH THESE NAMES BUT THEY ARE THE SHIIT! I havent felt soo great in a long ass time. We were bumping J-Dillas remix to secrets of the sand and eating digiorno or whatever you called it. Jenna loves 1000 ways to die like me and we wouldnt stfu about it "JENNA JAMES STFU WE GET IT!" lol!
The night ended around 1 and I went home to sleep like a baby.
Crack.
Have you ever watched those movies where the couple break up and have that sudden urge to pursue eachother? Well what if one pursues too late? These are just hypothetical questions btw.
I havent cracked and I dont intend to. But the honest truth, I think you will. I'm not saying I doubt you in anyway. But once you realize it you will. The only thing that frustrated me was the fact that I didnt get to say everything that I wanted to.
Ive been tested in life but this was a difficult task. I admit I think about how you are and what you are doing but I shake it off and go on about my day. 6 months ago I would have been all crazy about it and trying to do this and that to get to you. But in all honesty, I enjoy the life I am living right about now. I am graduating on time! I am also getting my license next week. A car after graduation? I'm not trying to push my luck! haha but I proved you and others wrong. I even proved myself wrong!
Life is good and can only get better. I find it somewhat unfortunate that you left right before it did. But youve got your own thing going on with you i'm pretty sure. Honestly, the reason why I failed to ever blog about the situation is because I didnt wanna go crazy haha. But who gaf! I need to get this out of my head somehow. I had a dream about you lastnight. Thats one of the main reasons why I felt the need to blog about this. You cant be fucking with my dreams dude! haha I went to some filipino family house and you were with some guy. I asked to talk to you and you just started telling me how you gave him head and some more junk. I could honestly say I woke myself up talking in my sleep. Did it bother me a bit? Of course it did. But I am not bothered by it anymore. Life goes on. Not to rub it in your face but I guess it wasnt fate like we thought it would be. Well I have other stuff to blog about bye bye!
I havent cracked and I dont intend to. But the honest truth, I think you will. I'm not saying I doubt you in anyway. But once you realize it you will. The only thing that frustrated me was the fact that I didnt get to say everything that I wanted to.
Ive been tested in life but this was a difficult task. I admit I think about how you are and what you are doing but I shake it off and go on about my day. 6 months ago I would have been all crazy about it and trying to do this and that to get to you. But in all honesty, I enjoy the life I am living right about now. I am graduating on time! I am also getting my license next week. A car after graduation? I'm not trying to push my luck! haha but I proved you and others wrong. I even proved myself wrong!
Life is good and can only get better. I find it somewhat unfortunate that you left right before it did. But youve got your own thing going on with you i'm pretty sure. Honestly, the reason why I failed to ever blog about the situation is because I didnt wanna go crazy haha. But who gaf! I need to get this out of my head somehow. I had a dream about you lastnight. Thats one of the main reasons why I felt the need to blog about this. You cant be fucking with my dreams dude! haha I went to some filipino family house and you were with some guy. I asked to talk to you and you just started telling me how you gave him head and some more junk. I could honestly say I woke myself up talking in my sleep. Did it bother me a bit? Of course it did. But I am not bothered by it anymore. Life goes on. Not to rub it in your face but I guess it wasnt fate like we thought it would be. Well I have other stuff to blog about bye bye!
Monday, March 15, 2010
cruise!
Okay so I bought one of those raffle tickets a really really long time ago and I got a call a couple of weeks ago about a cruise. I thought it was some joke but it's a cruise for 2. As fun as it sounds I think I am going to give it to my mom. She deserves it. I dont want to pick and choose who I'd go with so I really think I am gonna give it to her.
http://www.grandcaribbeancl.com/indexwithmovie.html
http://www.grandcaribbeancl.com/indexwithmovie.html
Nikes
I dont really like the weird ass beat but the concept is really great. Who ever thought you could relate a pair of shoes to life!?
Little Darling
I havent had a weekend like that in such a long ass time!
Friday- Some drama happened but I'm not gonna go into detail. But other than that, the day was great! Chrisset drove down here from temecula so we hung out. She is such a random person I swear! Her and I went to see Brooklyns Finest at Edward cinema. That movie is the black spin off of the Departed. But it was pretty good. After that we hung out in that shopping area doing whatever. Who ever thought you could have so much fun in target? lol After that I went home, did some chores, made some quesadillas and caught the ending of hustle and flow. I didnt go out for the rest of the night because I was too tired.
Saturday- Was the fucking bomb! My mom made me drive her all around town -.- She wouldnt even let me bump! lol On top of that she kept on talking about my driving. That shit was getting hella annoying. I felt like pulling over and making her drive haha. we went to yokoz to eat. Ive been craving chicken Keleguin for the longest time omg @.@
I came home to more chores! I felt bad that Tatieana was waiting outside in the car for like 20 minutes. She was nice enough to bring me a fat ass plate of Chamorro food from her family party! hahah I'm still not even done with all of it and its monday -.- Her and I attempted to vacuum her floors but that didn't work out so we went to Carols and waited on Abbey to finish getting ready.
On the way to Abbeys family party, Chef Tatie realized she forgot her Arizona at Carols and thats when everything went down hill for her! lol Tell me why she locked the keys in the car with her car on! hahaha And then she broke her license plate holder thingy on the front bumper! lol Abbey is such a fob I swear. While we were waiting on Triple A, Carol was smoking and Abbey goes "TURN IT OFF!" We waited for like 30 minutes and it took the guy less than a minute to get into the car -.-
The fight was whack as fuck! The only part I liked was when the black guy was doing his dance to the ring. But on the bright side, I ate some filipino food and got 2 MGD's out of it =). We left after the 2nd round and hit up one of Chef Taties friends birthday kickbacks.
I finally got to see Karla Albano! It's been a long ass time -.- That Ashley chick was drunk out of her mind -.- Some dude was dancing with her and asked her what her name is. She was like "My name is I GOTTA GO" LOL! Some dumb ass fob kept on starin me up and down and I just stared back. He thought just because he was drunk he could act hard. He didnt do shit though.
My cousin was at my house so Chef took me home. You'd think my night ended at 10 but it didn't! haha We ended up hitting up a big ass kickback. I seen alot of people from Mount Miguel who were Juniors and Seniors when I was a freshman. We had control of the Beer Pong table most of the night. The one thing that I never seen or heard happen in beer pong history is someone bouncing the ball into there own cup! But it happened 0.0 Psy hella smoked me out. That nigga is not sheisty at all with his stuff. The rest is history. I was sooo blown it isnt even funny @.@
I sobered up a bit and my cousin was like "since its his birthday lets go to the strip club" I WAS LIKE WTF!? HAHAHA I have never been to one before but that shit was pretty memorable. I mean I was like some horny guy! I was just like "Whoa howd she do that!?" hahha I didnt spend shiit! We called it a night at around 5. I Knocked TF OUT! When I got home omg -.-...
Sunday- I was pretty hung over. I just layed in bed and played video games most of the time. I had to watch my nephews AGAIN! and that ruined everything. Like my older sisters dumb ass knew I had things to do. Rather than coming home at 5 like she said she came here at around 930 I was pretty pissed. But whatever atleast I got paid for it. On top of that! I choked on a pepper -.-
Overall my weekend was the shit!
Friday- Some drama happened but I'm not gonna go into detail. But other than that, the day was great! Chrisset drove down here from temecula so we hung out. She is such a random person I swear! Her and I went to see Brooklyns Finest at Edward cinema. That movie is the black spin off of the Departed. But it was pretty good. After that we hung out in that shopping area doing whatever. Who ever thought you could have so much fun in target? lol After that I went home, did some chores, made some quesadillas and caught the ending of hustle and flow. I didnt go out for the rest of the night because I was too tired.
Saturday- Was the fucking bomb! My mom made me drive her all around town -.- She wouldnt even let me bump! lol On top of that she kept on talking about my driving. That shit was getting hella annoying. I felt like pulling over and making her drive haha. we went to yokoz to eat. Ive been craving chicken Keleguin for the longest time omg @.@
I came home to more chores! I felt bad that Tatieana was waiting outside in the car for like 20 minutes. She was nice enough to bring me a fat ass plate of Chamorro food from her family party! hahah I'm still not even done with all of it and its monday -.- Her and I attempted to vacuum her floors but that didn't work out so we went to Carols and waited on Abbey to finish getting ready.
On the way to Abbeys family party, Chef Tatie realized she forgot her Arizona at Carols and thats when everything went down hill for her! lol Tell me why she locked the keys in the car with her car on! hahaha And then she broke her license plate holder thingy on the front bumper! lol Abbey is such a fob I swear. While we were waiting on Triple A, Carol was smoking and Abbey goes "TURN IT OFF!" We waited for like 30 minutes and it took the guy less than a minute to get into the car -.-
The fight was whack as fuck! The only part I liked was when the black guy was doing his dance to the ring. But on the bright side, I ate some filipino food and got 2 MGD's out of it =). We left after the 2nd round and hit up one of Chef Taties friends birthday kickbacks.
I finally got to see Karla Albano! It's been a long ass time -.- That Ashley chick was drunk out of her mind -.- Some dude was dancing with her and asked her what her name is. She was like "My name is I GOTTA GO" LOL! Some dumb ass fob kept on starin me up and down and I just stared back. He thought just because he was drunk he could act hard. He didnt do shit though.
My cousin was at my house so Chef took me home. You'd think my night ended at 10 but it didn't! haha We ended up hitting up a big ass kickback. I seen alot of people from Mount Miguel who were Juniors and Seniors when I was a freshman. We had control of the Beer Pong table most of the night. The one thing that I never seen or heard happen in beer pong history is someone bouncing the ball into there own cup! But it happened 0.0 Psy hella smoked me out. That nigga is not sheisty at all with his stuff. The rest is history. I was sooo blown it isnt even funny @.@
I sobered up a bit and my cousin was like "since its his birthday lets go to the strip club" I WAS LIKE WTF!? HAHAHA I have never been to one before but that shit was pretty memorable. I mean I was like some horny guy! I was just like "Whoa howd she do that!?" hahha I didnt spend shiit! We called it a night at around 5. I Knocked TF OUT! When I got home omg -.-...
Sunday- I was pretty hung over. I just layed in bed and played video games most of the time. I had to watch my nephews AGAIN! and that ruined everything. Like my older sisters dumb ass knew I had things to do. Rather than coming home at 5 like she said she came here at around 930 I was pretty pissed. But whatever atleast I got paid for it. On top of that! I choked on a pepper -.-
Overall my weekend was the shit!
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Relief
So I just got home from mission and I think I seen a dolphin again! I got hella scared @.@ I thought it was a freakin shark but travis was like "ITS A FUCKING DOLPHIN CALM TF DOWN SHIT!" LOL I had such a great session out there. I wish I was like super duper good like I use to be -.-
Yesterday was procrastination day no lie. My mom insulted me by buying me 2 big macs a large fry and drink. I AM NOT THAT DAMN FAT! LOL I stayed up until 2 doing homework and almost K.O.'d while talking on the phone with Kianna I don't remember if she was in the middle of a story hahaha Shes korean and black too! haha its hella weird but cool.
Today is just getting started. I still have to finish up a little bit more homework, clean the backyard (AGAIN EVEN THOUGH I NEVER GO BACK THERE!), head to travis' pad for a little hookah and COD session then drop off homework at the school.
SHIT NEVER GETS OLD!
Yesterday was procrastination day no lie. My mom insulted me by buying me 2 big macs a large fry and drink. I AM NOT THAT DAMN FAT! LOL I stayed up until 2 doing homework and almost K.O.'d while talking on the phone with Kianna I don't remember if she was in the middle of a story hahaha Shes korean and black too! haha its hella weird but cool.
Today is just getting started. I still have to finish up a little bit more homework, clean the backyard (AGAIN EVEN THOUGH I NEVER GO BACK THERE!), head to travis' pad for a little hookah and COD session then drop off homework at the school.
SHIT NEVER GETS OLD!
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Advice Taken
Well if she didnt know, I have too kept a journal tucked away.I highly doubt she will ever see it. I ran out of room so I guess this ones to you. I have never taken the time to think about someone this much. Especially when I was hella going through it. Truth is, I don't regret it. I'm not saying I got a kick out of everything I did but it was well worth it. It seriously turned you into one of the only down to earth people I know. Like I can sit back and think "Damn I helped create the person she is today" I really don't mean to seem big headed about that but I think it's true. Times like this I enjoy the fact that you are still there no matter what the circumstances may be.
I am no longer afraid of that untold future. Whatever it may be I am looking forward to it no matter what. I respect your thoughts to the fullest. Don't get all big headed after reading this either! haha jk
But real talk, I know it will be impossible to find someone just like you but you already know I'll survive! You just know me too damn well like better than I know myself.
This is far from one of those payback blogs I just see hella clearly now thanks to you no lie. It has been 3-4 years and I know for a fact time will take us wherever you and I want to go. I'm not sure if that makes sense but it basically means we wont drift. Whether someone is there or not.
I am no longer afraid of that untold future. Whatever it may be I am looking forward to it no matter what. I respect your thoughts to the fullest. Don't get all big headed after reading this either! haha jk
But real talk, I know it will be impossible to find someone just like you but you already know I'll survive! You just know me too damn well like better than I know myself.
This is far from one of those payback blogs I just see hella clearly now thanks to you no lie. It has been 3-4 years and I know for a fact time will take us wherever you and I want to go. I'm not sure if that makes sense but it basically means we wont drift. Whether someone is there or not.
Monday, March 8, 2010
What A Fucking Day!
And the day is barely even starting! hahaha Don't you just hate it when you dont get to say everything you had to say? I think It's because some people just cant handle the truth. Today I woke up to the most random phone call in the world. Like what made them call out of no freaking where? I've been neglecting my blogspot.. Poor thing! haha jk No worries some pretty interesting things will be posted up again like before. Well atleast What I think is interesting being that this is my blog! haha
This weekend I was asked my a couple of people why I didnt blog anymore. Reason being, I didnt realize how many people actually read it! lol Well I'll leave you with the boys in the hood video (WITH SOUND!)
This weekend I was asked my a couple of people why I didnt blog anymore. Reason being, I didnt realize how many people actually read it! lol Well I'll leave you with the boys in the hood video (WITH SOUND!)
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Get It Got It Good
Not exactly what you'd expect. Rather than thinking "what if" I am going to think "what about". People are so stuck in living in the moment, they dont realize where the future may be headed. But hey call me crazy I just don't feel the need to grieve or care.
HiPH0P State Of Mind-
HiPH0P State Of Mind-
Saturday, March 6, 2010
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