Point Blank.

In order to become a diamond you need to hit rock bottom.

NO LIFE!

You can say I have no life for watching this hahaha




My bestfriend jasmine is white at times -.-

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Without struggle there is no progress- Frederick Douglass

Because no matter what the situation may be, experiencing it from both sides of the fence can and will help you master whatever it may be.

180

Surprisingly most of my life has reflected upon this picture. You'd think that I have those same habits. But I am getting somewhere. Just watch and see people this is just the beginning.

BUMPIN

No is a Yes later

I am on the rise. It sounds hella corny but its the truth. I have learned so much these past 2 weeks. Like how the average millionaire is a c- student. Not to go too much into detail about the things that I have learned but Saturday Training was just amazing. People really think they know what they are talking about but it's fine. Only time will tell. So lets get this done right!

This weekend was a little overwhelming, but at the same time I really enjoyed it. Long story short, Kickback, party, work, homework day. I feel a bit more time managed. I'm even gonna attempt to sleep a bit earlier.

neo-soul

For some reason I like shit like this, its hella dope. It sounds and looks like some shit that would be in a cologne commercial hahaha.

'Perception' Electric Wire Hustle from Electric Wire Hustle on Vimeo.

Busy

Ever since I was told "there isnt time to waste" I really took it into consideration. I mean I know that I am not as good at time management as I use to be, but ill be back on track in no time. This opprotunity has been in front of me this whole time and I am just now taking it. Well it's on like donkey kong!

I feel a bit accomplished though because I got my permit haha and i'm on the verge of being employed. So we will see how this goes.

GOOD SHIIT.
I'd be lying if I said I couldn't relate vvvv

90's

Although I grew up in the 90's I kind of want to go back at this age so i'd be able to remember most of it. Being black was the shit! We didnt have that stupid shit we have today. It just goes to show how much society has really changed. I mean back then, Black people actually had respect and actually spoke about shit that could relate to everyday life. Even if there wasnt all of that technology. The most I miss about it is the music. None of that stupid shit like today.

I got kind of bored so I decided to post hella videos up from music I use to remember. Sorry if its alot it wasnt even half of what I was gonna put up.

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I never actually listened to this song. But it says alot @.@

Blogative

Okay so I just came home from this bomb ass buffet. I forgot what its called. But if I could, I would throw up just to eat it all over again! I'm full and tired. I figure since I dont think ill be getting any homework done tonight, I should blog a bit.I didnt think a birthday wish list would be necessary. But ill make one any way haha.

Idk what it is with me and grey this year but yeah. Good luck biting! =)

















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That's Deep.

When a bitch gives a nigga her love..

When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
it's like you're allowing them to break your heart.
once a nigga makes you feel all good inside, makes you feel comfortable with him, makes you feel 10x beautiful than what you really are, makes your heart beat faster n slower at the same time, and is your FIRST to everything.. he has you.


When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
you'll do anything for him. you'd lay yourself on the line for him, feeling as IF he might do the same.. when really, he wouldn't.
When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
to be real, you lose alot of friends knowing that your man makes you feel like you have that comfort, you have him and you dont need nobody else..


When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
he'll make you feel like he will NEVER ever hurt you, but meanwhile when you sittin' at home, the niggas on the other line with another bitch tryna stay low creepin'.
When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
if once he does hurt you, and you give him another chance, he will continue to repeat the shit he does 'cause he'll feel like you'll always go back to him.


When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
after being the HUMANS that you are.. fussin' n fightin' at each other in order to maintain a strong relationship, you become weaker and weaker by the shit you take and by how much you allow him to BREAK YOU.
When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
through the tears that you cry.. through the anger that you posses.. through the happiness that you can never get once back.. you still give him a chance because you love him. it's like, why does something so WRONG feel so RIGHT?


When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
through everything that has overcame you, through the good and the bad.. no matter how horrible it is, you'd rather have bad times with HIM than have a good time with someone else..


When a bitch gives a nigga her love..
not only til the point that he continues to break you and ruin you.. that you've just had it.. and you realize you're not the same person you were once before.
Knowing that you should have gave up the first time, you only did not because you were in love. Because you thought that all the words he has said to you, all the things he has done for you, or the way he made you feel makes you feel like no otha NIGGA could ever do for you.
and knowing this..


It all comes down to a point..
where i sit to myself and think ..
You'll never forget your first true love, NEVER.
The reason why this all happens is because you chose to make it unhealthy. You chose to let him break you.. you chose to sit there and cry every night wishing you weren't alive.. you chose to let a nigga hurt you.


And this is because.. it's a BITCH who gave a NIGGA her love.. meaning not only through the whole relationship you were once in with your first true love you were a bitch.. but you were a good person who had faith to make the relationship work. Once he fucked up on me and I fucked up on him, I realized our relationship was all downhill. If only he gave me US a chance to sit down, wake up and realize what we have is something that we could change. You can never change a NIGGA for who he is, or what he cannot be. In order for someone to change, they have to change for themselves, for the better. In order to maintain a healthy relationship, you gotta sacrifice. You gotta TRUST. You gotta have that communication that no one else could ever have with you.. you gotta be NOT AFRAID to give chances.


he was once a man.. once a man that i could call my own and not worry about. I was once a lady that i could say to myself.. "im strong." BUT, i let him over take me. I let him break me. I let him do what he would do to me. i let him. Why? Because i loved him, because i thought we were meant to be. But it wasn't all his fault.. it was also mine. But i learned from my mistakes, and i learned so much to be a stronger person and know that throughout everything he will always have my love.. a real lady will always fall down to being a bitch. Whether its from lettin a nigga hurt her.. or lettin her friends break her.. or lettin the world take her. Either way.. once in your life time a lady will stoop down to be a weak female because they can't help it.


Only a real man would take care of a real lady. Only a real typa love would be able to fix things and overcome all the obstacles that have been thrown at them.


So what does that tell you today..? Are you in love with a nigga that treats you how you shouldn't be treated? Are with you a nigga that makes you feel 10x worse through pain but can make you feel the happiest ever when hes with you?
dont let a nigga break you. Us females in this world all deserve to have respect, all deserve to be happy. Same goes for men. The whole world is fucked the fuck up.. everyones confused.. even my own girls are sittin here cryin goin through what im goin through.. cant fall outta love and takes shit from their first true love because they HAVE THEM LIKE THAT.


What can you do when a nigga stops loving you? What can you do when a nigga gives up? What can you do when a nigga is happy with another girl? Nothing. You can't force yaself to feel something you won't feel, and YA SHO CANT FORCE A NIGGA TO FEEL SOMETHING THAT HE already WONT FEEL -Kathleen Amon

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All I can say about that is she's right -.- I mean this shit goes both ways. Can you relate?

18 >.<

Just 5 more days.. You could only imagine how I feel about this one. It's not what you think. Many individuals think that it's just a number. But I see it differently. Clubbing isnt even going to be fun haha. Ive done everything there is for an 18 year old to do by the age of 14. I am really money motivated right now. If I could just give up on highschool and start college I would already. This shit is just a set back for me. I am on the look out for a job. I'll be driving reallly reallly soon! =) but aside from that, it isnt really anything that I am looking forward to. Things are getting way better than before. It's my turn. Fuck all of that looking out for the homies. Like really, What homies? hahaha. Well today has been a long and busy day so I am gonna take a nap before I get started on anything else. BTW I need a fucking massage Wink* Wink*

music of the day haha

-.-

Self Explanatory

I Am David

For some odd reason,I love movies where people escape from concentration or prison camps of some sort. Call it taboo. Because although it still goes on today, the majority of our population dont seem to be aware of it. I hate how people can go on with there life knowing that this is going on in the world.

This movie was really good. I just hate how the trailer is all cheesy.

If you DGAF

Then I don't give a fuck and it shouldnt even matter anymore. What can I say, you've moved on to bigger and better things =). Rather than calling you scandalous and saying that you are wrong for the things your doing, your right. Everyone is right in their own way. I may not know all the details that you keep from me, but I am far from stupid. It has come to the point to where it doesnt matter what I say or do which is fine. Consider me out of the picture like Ive always been. Life really does go on and Ive learned that. Who do I blame? NO one. This is just the way it is going to be. Not to be blunt, I just have a strong vibe that it may work for a bit.But it wont work forever. I love you guys and I'm there for you to a certain extent. Have a Lovely life! =)

Deep

Sorry I had to steal this from you Karla Albano

ILML

Aside from being Jobless,Carless, and not doing so financially great, I'm not senseless. I have all these goals that I continue to work hard for, I have a social life to fall back on, and theirs always those people who have always been there for me. Even though all of the unfortunate crap happened to me within these past 2 months, It really weeded out the fakes and all that useless load of junk I was carrying. Life really has been getting better. So I don't have time to be on those stupid little problems that aren't even going to benefit me in my future. Leave me the fuck alone IDC! So if your in my life consider it a privilege it really is time to put the game face on and be heartless ruthless and all of that great stuff. God really does work in mysterious ways. THANK YOU GOD! haha =)

Well its time to get back to work. I still need to find black people like this! haha.

Dream Building

It is beginning to work. If you dont know what dream building is, its where you hope imagine and do all of that good junk. I really just want to get this high school ordeal done and over with so I can move on to bigger and better things. I know it is to soon to tell, but you'll see. I know for a fact everything will come together in time. Just a little bit longer and I'll be in there like swim wear baby! haha. Well my break from homework is over. Its time to hit the books.

Insomnia nights/mornings

Yup I can tell that this will be another one of those. Considering the fact that I have to reevaluate myself and a plethora of homework to do I wont be sleeping for quite a while.

DEEENG!

Dont get jealous! This is my damn fantasy lol. Look at these HOT MAMAS!

2NE1 is the shizznit =]

Something New

For once. It is more than likely that you expected this coming. But thats fine. I intend on keeping this a bit short. Their really isn't a point on doing this besides the comfort of venting. Rather than being at a loss for words, the only thing that bothered me is that you lied. As real as you seem to keep it, this time around you lied. And you hid things. Like really, all you should expect is for me to just let you live your life like you've been. There really is no point in doing anything about it.

I Really Really

Don't have time for games. it has come to the point to where i reallllllyyy dont give a fuck what anyone thinks or says. Especially if they dont even know the half of it.

I am really tired of it. So fine. I give the fuck up.

Point Made

Okay so ive known Nichelle "Neeshy" since like 6th grade. We use to be hella close but idk wtf happened haha. She has and always will be taller than me -.- I hope she doesnt have a cow when she sees that I put these up but It really does make alot of sense. Check it out <3

I Hate.

How I can never have a real conversation with you about something I am really passionate about. Maybe thats why I use to act careless about the things you talk about.

Find A Way

Now why you wanna go and do that, love, huh?
Making things for me towards you harder
Killing me, just when I think we're there
You got the whole vibe and the flows in the air
Telling me 'bout next man
But next man ain't the nigga with the plan
Who got your heart in mind?
It's about time that you just unwind (come on)

Word word, now wait a minute now before you jet it to the curb (yeah, yeah)
Start to make affections, which is good not the hurt
But it, it aint me, and I, I ain't blurred (uh)
I'ma still just chill with you
Maybe things could change if you change your view (come on)
If not then I guess it is cool (yeah)
just, to keep to yourself and adbide by the rules, right

Crash.

This seriously made my day. University students in the "hermit kingdom" are finally beginning to revolt against their "Great Dear Leader". I can see the North crashing down within the next 10 years. This is just a start.

Okay so I was reading this article, and it was talking about how the black market is getting more and more popular out there. If you didnt know, North Korea is very strict. A couple of years ago you could be executed for having a boot leg movie that was foreign. Now that they cant even afford to send people to labor camps, they began to reduce the sentences.



The good part about this is that most students are starting to not gaf. Bootleg movies are everywhere! When they do get caught by police officers, they just toss them a pack of cigarettes imported from china and the cops go on about their business. I believe it is a start! The reason why the government is afraid to allow foreign films to be watched is because they believe that it may start some sort of revolution depending on what movie it may be.



Even if the Juche Ideology has been imprinted in their brain literally since birth, many people are finally beginning to open up their eyes and become open minded.

The one thing I cant wait to do when I turn 18 is apply for LINK .

WITFW

We Need More Black People Like This!

The title says it all! haha jk. Well it is pretty sad. I mean I know that people like to express themselves but fuck can you atleast have a bit of sense? Rather than speaking ebonics, take your ass to speech! I feel like I am being Anti-black but I'm not senseless =].



Well anyways, I am having another one of my insomnia moments for no apparent reason. So I decided to youtube an all time favorite producer of mine. Slakah The BeatChild Is the most versatile and underrated person I have come across. I find that music from other countries are a bit better than the bs we hear. Even the style gets me a bit hyped. It kind of motivates me to get a job.



If you know me well enough, you'd know that I love real Hip-Hop. None of that hibbidy hoo dah jerk my dick off type of shit! hahaha.

Rev is Knowledge.

RevRunWisdom

The immature mind hops from one thing to another; the mature mind seeks to follow through. -(H. Overstreet)


Okay now I am really going to try and sleep.

Note.

The tables didn't turn I just grew the fuck up.

Life Is What You Make It

And I have made mine a living hell. The last thing I have ever wanted was this. My peers are everything I'm not. I am about to be 18 without a job or car. WTF is that!? Maybe people don't think of it as a big deal but for some reason it is to me. I have filled out countless applications and I only recieved 1 call. My mom is forever putting me down by calling me lazy and saying I dont do shit. When I am the only person here that cleans. So the fuck what if I stay in my room all day. Its because I dont want to be bothered by them. On top of that, my little brother moved in my room so I cant stay to myself what so ever. This is all bull shit.

ON A QUEST!

Holey moley. I am forever looking like the bad guy. I really need to know what I did wrong. This time I knojavascript:void(0)w I am not wrong. That's how I know I need to leave this alone.

Boyz In the Hood!

After watching countless independent films, we all decided to make our own. It's pretty low budget but its all G.

haha too bad the sound doesnt work.We had a pretty dope soundtrack. Its because tom forgot to do the copyright bs. oh well. check it out =]

Bloggy

For some reason I feel the need to blog @.@ So I finally fixed my closet back. Took a hammer and a shit load of nails to do so. I have no freakin idea how I managed to do it! School wasnt so great. I had found out that although I am 2 classes ahead in credits, I still have to graduate in june -.- Talk about bs! but its okay though. I don't plan on letting it get to me. This means I will have so much more extra time on my hands =] That is sort of one of the reasons why I have been job hunting like a mofo! It'll be great. The fact that I will be able to do so many things. I never thought it would happen this fast but im on a freakin roll! I dont feel the need to go into detail but the secret really is working on me. I changed it up a little bit.

I had a coffee table talk. Never had one in my life! haha well sorta. I felt like an old person. But it was great catching up with a friend.

Not to ramble off on this pointless blog but imagine how life would be without music =.= that shit would be soooooooo booooring! haha. I am not to sure what else to blog about so I am gonna go watch a movie and call it a night. Hasta Luego!

RiP Closet

That shit straight up broke! Like I didnt realize how many clothes I really do have. I put up a jacket and BAM! That shit came tumbling down =.= The bar that you put hangers on is donzo.. I need to find some sort of way to fix this shit. Look on the brightside, I found a crap load of clothes I have been looking for! haha. BTW My room is not junky its just that side from the accident haha.

Spoken Word

Shits pretty raw and real.Other than youtube, I have seen a performance at church but thats about it . Shes the first person I personally know that can actually perform and write.If she performs at ab or kp samahan ill be looking forward to it. Talk about talent. Check it out.

Activity

I found it pretty difficult to sleep lastnight on account of Abbey and
Travis blowing up my phone. I mean honestly, is paranormal activity
really that scary!? I still wanted to watch it but people are being
pansys and it is kind of getting me a bit to curious im scaring myself.

Homework is becoming easy as pie. It couldn&#39;t get any easier. I
think I can graduate early and get this head start that I&#39;ve always
wanted. Depending on how much homework I have will determine the outcome
of my festivities tonight, if I even get enough done =.= I don&#39;t
plan on being out too late tonight, I have ACT&#39;s to take early in
the morning. I think I&#39;m ready like uncle freddy! Haha jk.

If John sells me the car, im going to be really stoked! Vroom! Vroom!
BeepBeep! Its a guarantee buy my mom said. This will be great =D. I
think that smiley looks like a penis sometimes haha.

I love the fact that I can be their for all of those who need me now and
vice versa. A friend stopped by this morning because she was upset. But
that didn&#39;t stop her from going on with her day. I should be getting
back to homework. So everyone have a wonderful day =)

Btw I am pretty sure this shit is going to come out all jacked up since
that's how it usually does through my phone -.-

Kinda How I am Feeling Right Now

Ladies Man

While I'm waiting to be picked up, I think this would be a great time to blog about something that came to mind. I was thinking about why and how I ended up having so many friends of the opposite sex. I came to the conclusion that its because I was practically raised by women! haha I dont have too many uncles and the ones I do are pretty distant. Shits alil weird. Just a thought. IDK WTF I am doing haha. k well its time to get back to eating my yummy croissant!

Weird

Kanye Has been doing some out of the ordinary things.

Kanye West - We Were Once A Fairy Tale (2009)

They Don't Call Me Get It James for Nothing.

I get the point. Thats just about all ive got now. And rather then trying to hard, I'm not going to do shit. I've already said what I had to say and I'm not chasing. I understand that I can no longer be met half way on this. So the best thing I can do is be me. It's gonna be great. I might have met the deadline but its time to be who I was around 8 months ago. The good grade getting person I was. The one whos just down for fun. Not that manwhore shit.I grew up and I know I did. Like I was told, Who knows what the future has for me. But all this shit is coming to a stop. I dont intend on feeling victimized or anything. This is me and thats about all I've got to start off with. Well Ive got some more homework to do.


Never feel sorry for yourself! Its useless & no-one cares! Lifes a play! DO NOT play the victim. period!-Rev Run

Let the Past be the Past

Thats exactly what I shouldve done rather than making a fool of myself. It was pretty immature of me to provoke it. Well all I can really do is say fuck it and get the fuck on right? Theres no point in wasting my time on something that has caused alot of problems. Rather then playing victim im gonna take it all and toss it. Trash day is tomorrow so even better. If you don't care then I hope you dont expect me to anymore. I don't expect anything from you anymore so you can go on about your life like you intend on. Hasta Luego. Oh I mean never @.@

She Thinks - Emanon

SPEAK.

Self Explanatory

"you can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, even months analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, should've, would've happened or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on."-Tupac

IM NOT GAY

Okay so I was on Kathleenas tumblr and I came upon this.



I was all into it! hahaha. I actually watched the whole thing =.= I think its because the girl on here is cute. I have no clue.

PIFA 2009

Pick Pocket - Ooklah The Moc




Was the shit! Too bad I only got to go for saturday. But atleast I made it for the 5th year in a row. The line-up for saturday was outrageous! I had to wake up at 4 in the freakin morning! In order to help set up stuff. After that I crashed out in the truck until open ceremony. I really loved it this year.You wouldn't believe how many people I ran into that I havent seen in so many years!

you can see me sitting down at 35 sec. haha



We all know what my favorite parts of the whole entire festival! FOOD AND TAHITIAN YUMMM! hahaha.



I really enjoyed pali roots band along with the old group I use to dance with (Imahen Tao Tao Tano) Its crazy how most of the guys dropped out of the group.But they didnt do so bad this year.





I find it funny how L&L's line always ends up empty. It just goes to show that that shits way to americanized! I feel kind of bad for the filipinos there haha. Because the announcer said something like "WHERES ALL MY FILIPINOS AT!?" and the elders and youth looked around and said "HUH!? AND EWW" HAHAHAHHA! I guess you can say it was one of those you had to be there to laugh about it moments.



For some reason everytime I come back from PIFA it inspires me to do something. Believe it or not I kinda wanna learn how to play electric guitar. Not none of that howley shit but like reggae. Unfortunately I wont be getting any pics from pifa until my lazy ass cousin decides to upload them. but for now all I could find was this video.

sandiego PIFA 2009

Over It.

So over these past couple of days I have had the opportunity to spend my afternoon in Borders and Starbucks in otay and eastlake.Its really great getting out of the places your use to. You could say I got time to think shit through alone. And I came to the conclusion that I shouldnt even be mad anymore. It's basically a waste of time and energy. I cant just sit here and expect everyone to have my back. For now on, I depend on no one. Although it may be a bit hard, I wont get mad over stuff like that. People have different beliefs and live by different morals along with principles. Mine arent really going to change but I will be less dependent on people.

I am aware of the things I said in the last blog and i'm not taking anything back. What happened is what happened and what was said was said. I forgive those who didnt do much even if some didn't apologize. So live with it or dipset. I could really care less if I have many friends. The few Realest people is all I need =].

JUMPED. NOT TALKING SHIT, JUST TELLING THE TRUTH SO COME CORRECT BEFORE YOU TRY TALKING SHIT TO ME.

Good Lookin Out Not - aint trippin

The pussiest thing anyone could do to someone. All I can say is I took it like a g and I didnt go out like a bitch while the majority of my so called homies just watched on the sideline. Before I even get started on the frustrations I have the story needs to be said.

Well last weekend I was with Kim. As we were walking into a party, this nigga from OMob started trying to hit on her and then talked shit to me. He wanted to try and be hard in front of his homies so he called me out. Knowing me i'm not a bitch so I didn't even say shit I just walked in the middle of the street. Once he seen that he looked confused as fuck and didnt know what to do. So his homeboy walked up and I told them straight up, they aren't jumpin me but they can line up and get there ass handed to them. Even though I was thinking "they are gonna fuck me up", they backed down and said they don't want no drama.

Then this weekend comes around and some drama happened between this guy and his room mate. so the party was basically popped. Everyone was leaving and my home girl just got there. Some female runs up talking shit to her because of some shit that happened a long ago. I guess they have been going at it forever. That girl called out my homegirl and my homegirl was whoopin her ass! I find it funny how that happens. Someone starts things with others then they get their ass whooped! Someone jumped in and started trying to hit my homegirl then someone jumped in for my homegirl and it was a 2 on 2 fade.

Out of nowhere the nigga who's girlfriend called out my homegirl prolly felt embarassed and decided to call me out.I didnt hesitate to put my hands up, Rather than catching a one on one fade, he looked behind him for 3 of his homies to run up on me. I took off running and they didnt come close to catching me. Keep in mind that these are some grown ass men with tats who looked like they just got out of prison. I'm not even over exaggerating.

Well anyways my home girl Sonari got out of her car and started going off. As we were walking back to the car they started surrounding me. And I caught one of them trying to come up from the side to hit me. So I said fuck it, put my fists up and someone hit me in the back of the head. Rather then falling down I took that shit to street and started swinging. They were over 10 deep. The only thing that was going through my head was "DO NOT FUCKING FALL!" HAHAHA I was not trying to get stomped out. I eventually fell but I jumped up really quick and hit someone in the chin so they backed up a bit and it gave me some sort of a chance. Quick thinking, I ran toward the side of this car and covered up my face. Then thats when the fists started flying.My homeboy Adrian ran up and punched the biggest guy in the group then 3 of his homies ran after Adrian. Sonari and Kathleen were grabbing niggas by the collar and punching them in the face. I was seeing people fly back because of them. Those fuckin pussies punched Nari and Kat too. Their were so many people fuckin jumping me, people had to hop over eachother in order to hit me. Some how Kristie came in there and hugged me then they stopped. After that happened I just ended up with a knot on my head and a bloody lip. Out of all of that I played it smart and cover up.


Where were my "homies" you ask? WATCHING FROM A FUCKING DISTANCE! One of them was even crouching behind a car. Another one shook the guys hand who started all of this shit in the first place. The girl who got her ass beat came up to another one of my homegirls talkin shit. I guess she couldn't except defeat and decided to go after her but it didn't happen.

Everyone met up at Aladdin hookah lounge and thats when everyone wanted to come up to me tryin to kiss my ass. I heard all of the excuses in the book. "you should have ran toward us" wtf nigga you should have ran toward me. "I got your back" No you dont because if you did you woulda took a beating with me. "I just got out of that shit with them" If it were me that good enough reason to get right back in it. So none of those excuses really count. The fact of the matter is, you watched your homie get jumped. Scratch that your associate. Because a homie wouldn't let that shit go down. All I can do is just say I see how it is. I knew yah was all talk.

Will I get some get back? Who knows. Maybe I will maybe I wont. If I do it could be today, tomorrow, next month, a couple of years from now. Honestly,IDGAF. I'm kinda glad that happened. It was an eye opener. So good lookin out omob for whoopin my ass hahaha. You would come after the smallest one out of the group. But all that matters is that I got heart unlike everyone else.

Just a heads up, anyone who was there and just watched. I still got your back. But when it comes down to you getting jumped, imma watch for the first 2 minutes then ill get in it so you can feel what I felt.

I cant be rollin with niggas who dont have my back so unless I know someone who would back me up is goin out then i'm not fuckin with it. I really dgaf how big bad buff and tuff yah niggas look. I got more heart then you fuckin wheenie. I have 0 respect for any of you.

3 of my homies got jumped by a different set the night after. Those were people that I know who would have jumped in to back me up. They didn't deserve that.I kinda wish it was the people who didnt get my back. I mean wtf is this!? Some females got more heart then the rest of these niggas out there. Thats a shame.

So until you redeem yourself in some way you get no props from me. You know who you are so there is no point in asking me. I'll tell you again if you wanna know though.

Getting Involved

Video:http://www.linkglobal.org/donate/9lives.html

Its what I intend on doing rather than sitting at home in the comfort of my home and feeling bad about the NK crisis. I have been following the crisis for around 3 years now and felt helpless. I turn 18 in 2 months so I will be applying for LiNK once the spots are open. I havent been this serious in my life but they do have a west coast team touring around and showing the movie Seoul Train. Although I have seen the movie before I plan on watching it. IDK how far orange county or Riverside is but I believe that they are the closest one to san diego. Here are the viewings.I am pretty sure no one cares but who knows!





9/22/09
Orange Wilkinson Founders Chapel (within the Fish Interfaith Center)
One University Dr., Orange CA
6:30pm
Jennifer Welsch
310.212.7190
jwelsch@linkglobal.org


9/29/09
Riverside Norte Vista High Scool
6585 Crest Avenue
7:30am

Bye Bye Arcee

Arcee is leaving us today and i think its total bullshit! So im gonna use the secret and believe that he will be back from hawaii within the next couple of months =] Here goes pics from the going away kickback/SG reunion at the beach everyone threw for him. BTW, the cop was just being nosey so we used his punk ass!