Crack.

Have you ever watched those movies where the couple break up and have that sudden urge to pursue eachother? Well what if one pursues too late? These are just hypothetical questions btw.

I havent cracked and I dont intend to. But the honest truth, I think you will. I'm not saying I doubt you in anyway. But once you realize it you will. The only thing that frustrated me was the fact that I didnt get to say everything that I wanted to.

Ive been tested in life but this was a difficult task. I admit I think about how you are and what you are doing but I shake it off and go on about my day. 6 months ago I would have been all crazy about it and trying to do this and that to get to you. But in all honesty, I enjoy the life I am living right about now. I am graduating on time! I am also getting my license next week. A car after graduation? I'm not trying to push my luck! haha but I proved you and others wrong. I even proved myself wrong!

Life is good and can only get better. I find it somewhat unfortunate that you left right before it did. But youve got your own thing going on with you i'm pretty sure. Honestly, the reason why I failed to ever blog about the situation is because I didnt wanna go crazy haha. But who gaf! I need to get this out of my head somehow. I had a dream about you lastnight. Thats one of the main reasons why I felt the need to blog about this. You cant be fucking with my dreams dude! haha I went to some filipino family house and you were with some guy. I asked to talk to you and you just started telling me how you gave him head and some more junk. I could honestly say I woke myself up talking in my sleep. Did it bother me a bit? Of course it did. But I am not bothered by it anymore. Life goes on. Not to rub it in your face but I guess it wasnt fate like we thought it would be. Well I have other stuff to blog about bye bye!