Relief

So I just got home from mission and I think I seen a dolphin again! I got hella scared @.@ I thought it was a freakin shark but travis was like "ITS A FUCKING DOLPHIN CALM TF DOWN SHIT!" LOL I had such a great session out there. I wish I was like super duper good like I use to be -.-

Yesterday was procrastination day no lie. My mom insulted me by buying me 2 big macs a large fry and drink. I AM NOT THAT DAMN FAT! LOL I stayed up until 2 doing homework and almost K.O.'d while talking on the phone with Kianna I don't remember if she was in the middle of a story hahaha Shes korean and black too! haha its hella weird but cool.

Today is just getting started. I still have to finish up a little bit more homework, clean the backyard (AGAIN EVEN THOUGH I NEVER GO BACK THERE!), head to travis' pad for a little hookah and COD session then drop off homework at the school.

SHIT NEVER GETS OLD!

Advice Taken

Well if she didnt know, I have too kept a journal tucked away.I highly doubt she will ever see it. I ran out of room so I guess this ones to you. I have never taken the time to think about someone this much. Especially when I was hella going through it. Truth is, I don't regret it. I'm not saying I got a kick out of everything I did but it was well worth it. It seriously turned you into one of the only down to earth people I know. Like I can sit back and think "Damn I helped create the person she is today" I really don't mean to seem big headed about that but I think it's true. Times like this I enjoy the fact that you are still there no matter what the circumstances may be.

I am no longer afraid of that untold future. Whatever it may be I am looking forward to it no matter what. I respect your thoughts to the fullest. Don't get all big headed after reading this either! haha jk

But real talk, I know it will be impossible to find someone just like you but you already know I'll survive! You just know me too damn well like better than I know myself.

This is far from one of those payback blogs I just see hella clearly now thanks to you no lie. It has been 3-4 years and I know for a fact time will take us wherever you and I want to go. I'm not sure if that makes sense but it basically means we wont drift. Whether someone is there or not.

What A Fucking Day!

And the day is barely even starting! hahaha Don't you just hate it when you dont get to say everything you had to say? I think It's because some people just cant handle the truth. Today I woke up to the most random phone call in the world. Like what made them call out of no freaking where? I've been neglecting my blogspot.. Poor thing! haha jk No worries some pretty interesting things will be posted up again like before. Well atleast What I think is interesting being that this is my blog! haha

This weekend I was asked my a couple of people why I didnt blog anymore. Reason being, I didnt realize how many people actually read it! lol Well I'll leave you with the boys in the hood video (WITH SOUND!)

Get It Got It Good

Not exactly what you'd expect. Rather than thinking "what if" I am going to think "what about". People are so stuck in living in the moment, they dont realize where the future may be headed. But hey call me crazy I just don't feel the need to grieve or care.

HiPH0P State Of Mind-

Lovin It!

Cute.

One thing I noticed about many people today is that they hate. They sit there and brainstorm about things you have done or the things you do. They talk and think of all sort of way out things to say to put you down just to bring them up. Have I messed up? Yup! Am I learning from it? Damn right =) I'm sort of happy. Its just a nudge of motivation.

So this weekend was productive. Homework and putting together my dream board was great! I count it as a me weekend. I met so many new and great people! I read the book the secret. And it only gets better.

Today was my nephews birthday. He turned 6. We went out to eat at this fancy restaurant. I was on conference call the whole entire time. So I didnt really get to enjoy it. But its okay I know its for the better. Well Its time to sleep. Good night people. God bless and I dont hate anyone! Although some crazy junk has happened within these past 2 months, I am happy. IDK why!? I'm just pretty happy and positive right about now.

2010

The 2010 James is much more different from 08 and 09. The way I can tell
it is taking effect is because people are already saying ive changed.
Like countless! I mean the narrow minded ones think of it negatively but
I dont care too much. They just wont be there when I do make it. Yeah
ive gone through some drama but like kim said "You have to hit
turbulence in a plane in order to get high during take off" something
like that. Ive been out of my comfort zone so many times. As for now, I
will never be comfortable. I am always going to better something.

One person I really really want to thank is Breanna Mesa. Believe it or
not shes been there since sophomore year. And always will be no matter
what the circumstances are. The past is in the past but the future is
pretty unknown. She opened my eyes when I was blind. Nothing about that
was negative what so ever. Life goes on but I know she will be in it
unconditionally. I am not saying her and I will be boyfriend and
girlfriend but yeah haha. Ive grown with her and will continue too.

Another person is Kimberly Dela Cruz. Pretty Ironic right? haha Well she
pushed my motivation to the max. She also brought me up when I was down.
I learned to never give up because of her. I dont want to go to into
detail but shes said some jacked up shit to me but I think thats a good
thing. Ive said some shit to her too hahaha. But other than that if it
wasnt for her I dont know where I'd be right now. I do love her
sincerely for these things.

I dont need any other people in my life like seriously, when people walk
it makes more room for someone to come in.

One last person Is Junior Dailey. Believe it or not, I'd most likely be
a little kid without him and hugo. They are very wise and give guidance.
I'd have to say he keeps it real whether I am right or wrong.

With that being said, my priorities are coming first and the next person
is just gonna have to wait it out. So good luck if your up for a
challenge!