Low-life

I am. Its true. I'm very lazy. For some reason she made me feel like a
nobody today. Only because everything she said was true. I figure that
at the rate I'm going I will end up a bum of some sort.

It is just overwhelming and frustrating. Just the fact that I don't own
a business suit. Put it this way. Its hard to get on my feet. Because
even when I try there is some sort of obstacle holding me back.

For instance. Usana. In order to make money you need to spend money.
Only problem is, I HAVE NO FUCKING MONEY. You also need to wear proper
attire. Which I fail to own. With that being said there isn't shit I can
do.
When I showed up to the meeting I felt so out of place. Just the fact
that everyone seemed happy and wealthy.

As for school, I am falling way behind. I haven't finished one class yet
and summer begins in about 2 weeks. So you can say I will end up a
fucking drop out.

The reality check she had given me really makes me feel like shit. Like
I won't amount to nothing what so ever. And you know what, she's right.

I cannot believe I am in this situation. I was doing so great. And I
guess I put myself in this situation. There are very few things that I
can do to get out of the hole I am now in. And those few options are
with held to my knowledge. I have no idea what I could possibly do.